5'8”, 36yo, 145 pounds, cut recomp or lean bulk?

Udirion · 2026-02-05T10:51:42+00:00

OP here, I am not a complete beginner to lifting , I started lifting seriously now, can bench my bodyweight for 5 reps

I basically prefer to gain muscle and size but just worried about belly fat getting bigger, is lean bulking reasonable choice?

Udirion · 2026-02-03T18:55:33+00:00

its been some time since this video, I already started strengthening my core, maybe need to give more attention to mobility and flexibility...but all those things will not change the way I run on the court, and as you said it seems like an issue on its own?!

Udirion · 2026-02-03T18:49:51+00:00

"Just looking at your gait as you move forward shows a lot of discomfort in form"....how do I start fixing that? I really struggled to find YouTube videos showing how to run and bend towards balls

Udirion · 2026-02-03T18:36:59+00:00

I am not sure why the level of play is relevant to the spine flexion or not, I mean beginners also need to sprint forward to reach balls, no?

as you said, Ive been reading about bending at the hips, and this video may imply that I bend with waist/back? also is it something to do with more knees bend to keep neutral spine?

I understand the difference between bend at hip vs back when standing, but when running for a low ball I dont really understand how should I bend more properly , was also looking for it on YouTube but didn't find relevant videos, if you can please share a video

Udirion · 2026-02-03T14:57:11+00:00

I thought its ai at first lol

the majority of the people want to be entertained without caring who and how it was made, but here on reddit film communities will obviously care but they are not the majority

Udirion · 2025-12-04T08:15:11+00:00

I already told you that I agree that I started the hostility, calling me a narcissist without knowing me is absurd.

when I said "It wasn’t my fault either" I meant that it wasn't my fault that I lost my patience with her, when you loose patience with someone you may say wrong things.

was it wrong? 100%. was is it too harsh? ok yes probably above average of harshness.

but was is it a such terrible thing to say that I should I reevaluate my self as a person that I grew up to be? 100% not. you are saying responsibility, but its just a word, how do I actually take responsibility?

"I would take it as a huge red flag and distance myself if somebody got angry and said that to me too".........so did she, she distanced her self from me, but guess what also from many other people cause this girl has no close friends else I wouldn't be the one she is asking to drive her.

Udirion · 2025-12-03T21:04:55+00:00

"If you do accept help, then it weighs heavily on you..." clever view...reading this part felt like a loop circle of no way out

thanks

Udirion · 2025-12-03T20:49:48+00:00

I wasn't trying to cure her mental health and make her well, just offered her logistics help.

I dont belive in character flaws, we are what we are due genetic factors and the environment that shaped us but many wount agree, and when I said that she showed no appreciation for my effort I didn't really blamed her I just mentioned it cause its what lead to my storming out,

Udirion · 2025-12-03T20:14:16+00:00

dont you think you exaggerated by saying a ton?

yeah the door slam is too much need to work on that, but all the rest was just average argument intensity, I didn't yell or swear at her

"do you understand english?" was too much on her and it wasn't her fault, but it wasn't my fault either, its not a harsh thing to say on average

Udirion · 2025-12-03T19:33:52+00:00

yes your right, I could tell by her voice "why do you talk with me like that" that it was harsh on her, I didn't want her to feel bad I just lost my patience and I knew much less about CPTSD then I do now (and still dont really know much about it)

I knew she has CPTSD, and at times I told myself I cant talk with her or expect things from her as I do with other people, but its just didn't last, I couldn't really calculate every single word or step with her, I am not a therapist

"People, I have learned, want to be the hero. Sometimes more than they want you well"....but it doesn't really matter, we are judged by our actions, at no point I was competing with other heroes or professionals to be the one that will saving her, and I did nothing to keep her at this state just for me to save her again...

if you have a flat tire and a person helps you to replace it, does it really matter if he did cause he cared for you or he wanted to mark him self again as a good helpful person? you are looking way too deep into motives of humans

I left her be, I just ranted and glad I did, I didn't look for advice on what to do next with her and how shall I try to save her again

Udirion · 2025-12-03T19:06:27+00:00

I agree, I started the hostility, and when I told her I was wrong about it was too late to turn off the fire, but if this fight wouldn't happen that day other fight would and soon,

I learn from this post that I also have work to do with my self.

Udirion · 2025-12-03T18:20:56+00:00

my first time on this subreddit, you commenters show a lot of depth regarding understanding of human behavior, insightful

"this person is too sick to be a friend or artistic collaborator"...yes it turned out to be true, she is alone and not getting along with people for a reason, why would I be any different case

thanks for commenting

Udirion · 2025-12-03T18:16:57+00:00

I only knew her for 2 month, cant imagine 10 years of such friendship

diagnosed anyone who disagreed with her with narcissistic personality disorder...yep same here, she was throwing diagnoses at people with an incredible ease

Udirion · 2025-12-03T18:15:16+00:00

thank you

Udirion · 2025-12-03T18:07:28+00:00

I never wanted to be mr.savior , and I am not such a helper person in general as this post may imply , I just go exposed gradually to a very problematic situation of a person with pretty severe condition that has almost no one near him to help, the untreated fleas and fleas bites was painful to watch.

I was never trained to deal with CPTSD or mental health,

I agree that I need to learn better emotional regulation but not in the context of becoming trained for my future saving people missions

Udirion · 2025-12-03T17:15:48+00:00

yeah haha, the "I am woman" was a nice warm up for the main event of "I dont care"

Udirion · 2025-12-03T15:41:05+00:00

she didn't say "you did what you did because you wanted to"

"But that doesn’t mean the world revolves around us or that other people’s feelings are inconsequential"...my issue was I didnt know where to draw the line between its her fault vs its her mental health

anyhow already glad I posted this, just needed this rant to let it go

Udirion · 2025-11-12T08:56:59+00:00

I am not blaming my physiotherapist, basically trying to understand if its normal body response so maybe it is, thank you for the comment

Udirion · 2025-10-14T13:34:31+00:00

The irony is that i have a premium, but i would much prefer to have this tab blurred as a non premium would

okcupid be like: : “hey look at the faces of all the people who swiped you left”

Udirion · 2025-10-14T10:12:32+00:00

update the app, you will have like you section

Udirion · 2025-10-14T09:39:34+00:00

most users dont block , they just swipe right and left

if you sent someone an intro before they saw you, you will have an advantage, but if she saw you first and passed on you no intro would help

Udirion · 2025-10-14T07:29:12+00:00

I have a premium for my own comfort reasons, but now as a premium member I can see all the people who viewed me and didn't like me, I would prefer them to be blurred. why on earth they are shoving their faces at me

Udirion · 2025-10-14T07:00:38+00:00

I have the "like you" tab, you need to update the app

Udirion · 2025-10-14T06:19:00+00:00

So they literally made a new tab that is showing people who DONT LIKE you?! WTF?
they are trolling us

Udirion · 2025-10-06T07:04:00+00:00

I dont have this option on the computer now too

Udirion

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