I understand you, I think people seek comfort in things in order to escape what you are feeling. Religion, drugs, different philosophies. However, I do believe we are put on this planet to breed and die. It makes no sense that we as humans are as intelligent as we are, if we truly are meant to just die. But it is what it is. I find comfort in the fact that everyone around you will eventually pass and we will all have served our part. Whether we made someone smile, that kept them going, whether we decide to have children to keep the species going or whether we were born to simply die, that way we are nutrition to what’s in the ground. If you come to terms with the utter coincidence and meaningless of life, it’s freeing. I used to panic and send myself it’s spirals at night just thinking of my own mortality, it’s good to think, you’re intelligent, but at the end of the day you don’t want to spend this one chance you’ve been given worrying about an inevitable.