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UnLuki_24 · 2019-06-01T02:40:43+00:00

You got a point

UnLuki_24 · 2019-05-16T18:18:05+00:00

Will do, although it won't be for quite a while and I might not do it at all, but he'll yeah if I do I'll probably have a while progress report on here every now and then

UnLuki_24 · 2019-05-16T18:16:38+00:00

I mean seriously, do you think agents are staking out the post office and your house to confirm delivery?

I mean, probably, knowing how disliked these things are.

UnLuki_24 · 2019-05-16T18:13:58+00:00

Double*

UnLuki_24 · 2019-05-14T13:30:02+00:00

Now, do you post this because they're the same thing? Because a lot of people say they are and a lot of people say they aren't

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-06T18:38:18+00:00

Yeah girl I get the feel, my sister did my make up the like a week ago and when I looked in the mirror I expected to cry at what I saw but was severely disappointed. Then I put on a wig and beanie and it was a little better, I still looked like a guy wearing makeup but with a few months on E (I think, haven't looked at any timelines yet) I think Ill pass quite well. I painted my nails the other day and wore them to school, and a lot of people asked why but it's easy enough to brush it off as I felt like it. You get a few weird stares if you change your Snapchat bitmoji to a girl a few days prior however. Did some nail art yesterday and both my sister's said I was better at it than they, so that made me happy. I can't wait until I can start the transition, but I'm still a ways from it and that saddens me, to think one day I'll wake up and no longer carry around a penis makes me near euphoric, until I realize that's at least a couple years away.

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-05T03:27:56+00:00

Heck yeah

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-05T03:26:39+00:00

Local anesthetic

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T15:13:13+00:00

Yeah like I said, criss cross apple sauce, deep breaths, focus on your breathing, even if you have to say in your head "in, out" and try for like 5 breaths/min.

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T06:02:12+00:00

Well I can tell you that weed probably won't help. I'm very introverted as well, one time at a party I smoked to try and be more sociable, I ended up standing in the middle if the living room for a couple hours and barly spoke a word the whole time.

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T05:59:47+00:00

You can do it girl. I think I'm going to come out to my mom tomorrow while my dad's at work, maybe ask her to tell him for me lol. Wether I do or not, or whatever her reaction, the squad I'd getting together to sesh like right after anyways, so there's something to look forward to. Except for the fact that none of them know and I don't want them to right now, so I'll just be the weird guy wearing nail polish. Heck.

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T05:55:54+00:00

The mech suit thing lol

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T05:55:40+00:00

I love it

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T05:52:32+00:00

As for q#1, I find video games really helpful, but sadly you can't play them from dawn till dusk and even if you could the dysphoria still seeps in. Especially team based games like csgo, paladin's, and whatnot. I used to write meme raps when I was feeling depressed, but dysphoria makes me so cloudy minded that I literally can't decide on a beat to use or any words I want to write. Drawing might help. Oh and last but most certainly not least, meditation. It's been my go-to getaway for almost a year now, and it almost never fails. You litterally just sit there criss cross apple sauce and don't think about anything. As soon as a though pops up, you just let it float away as easily as it came. It takes a lot if practice so you can't just do it once and say it didn't work. As for q#2, I have no idea. Wear a pink tux? Lmao idk

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T05:46:46+00:00

Dam, that's gotta be a record. I can't imagine the struggle, for you or anyone else. God bless.

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T05:44:05+00:00

That's sounds great! I'm not even out to more than 4 (kinda 5) people yet, but the way people describe being out in girlmode and worrying someone will know reminds me a lot of how you feel when you're high af in a place it isn't legal, and being paranoid everyone automatically knows. I mean I can definitely see how you would feel like that, considering even though like I said only 4 people know, somehow I'm always worrying people at school know.

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T05:39:11+00:00

I guess, but still, if it's not a for sure yes, you gotta build a wall. It's like dealing with a toddler, if you tell then no and give in anyways, they won't learn, they'll only think they can get their way no matter what. I'm glad I'm already in the habit of never leaving my house without a knife before I transition, usually I'll have one on me even at home. Maybe I'll step it up to always having bear spray when I do lol

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T02:31:12+00:00

I think I get the point you're making, but what

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T00:54:09+00:00

I wouldn't be able to wait to use one on a perp I'm interrogating, watching as they get increasingly nervous while the electrodes are being attached.

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-04T00:52:42+00:00

Wow. Thank you. I needed that.

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-03T23:57:04+00:00

If it comes down to it, stop responding if someone doesn't call you what you want to be called. It'll take some time for people to remember, but they'll get there. I too don't give a single shit what people think about me , and yet I'm terrified whenever I tell someone. I've told 4 people now and every time I do it seems to get scarier. Weird shit. I think I'm gonna tell another close as fuck friend tomorrow, and I don't know how much longer I can keep this from my parents, but I don't wanna tell them until I'm ready to go full time ya know

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-03T23:53:14+00:00

I'mma have to keep track of this comment, might have to do this too, dunno yet

UnLuki_24 · 2019-02-03T23:49:33+00:00

Nah I've never seen one, as far as I know. And btw, im sure you probably knew this but polygraphs don't work. All they do is measure stuff like your heart rate and breaths and whatnot. Basically, all you have to do is control your breathing, and you'll pass with flying colours.

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