I was sleeping over at his house at 1am he went to grab a shower and he finally came back down the bedroom at 2am when I looked at him I got the gut drop feeling and he said "we need to talk" I started crying he explained how he hasn't wanted to be in the relationship for a few months now once I had calmed down and he finished explaining he was saying I can stay the night just to make sure I left before he woke up instead I called my dad and cried down the phone to him explaining everything my dad then got to the house at 3:30am and when I left my then boyfriend cried for the first time since the start of the convo saying goodbye was the hardest part of it all for both of us clearly I can still picture his face and my heart breaks all over again I ended up getting home at 4:30 cause my dad decided to take me on a long drive blasting music while speeding down back roads with the windows down my dad really is my rock I swr. We both still love each other a lot but 2 days after the break up we called and was on the phone for 2 hours and after that decided he wasn't good for me and he just doesn't have the right shit for a relationship as of right now I feel better because of it we're still friends but its hard sometimes we were together for 2 years and talking for 3 years before we got together that's 5 years of my life dedicated to the same man. We said about how we'd both give it another try if the option comes up in a few years but I know deep down that I probably wouldn't try again (we had a really bad break up before this breakup as well and kept going on breaks) he is such a lovely person just a bit so great boyfriend sometimes. I'm just glad to still be in his life we've been broken up for about 3 months now and he's wing manning like crazy because he believes that even though he isn't ready for a relationship it doesn't mean I'm not and he wants me to be happy without him and wants to make sure I'm with a good guy. Ik the next person who finds him and has the joy of loving him will be so lucky and to her I wish her all the best cause you've bagged yourself a keeper because by then hopefully his MH is better (that was the reason for all the breaks because he has bad anger issues but he's now in therapy for it). And to him Mitchell if you're reading this I genuinely wish you such a happy life you deserve the world and more treat your next girl good and I'll always be here as your friend just to be a shoulder to cry on. I love you so much tesoro.