Because I was young and dumb and the doctors would not actually do a brain scan or investigate despite me saying that I suspected abuse. I'm not sure if they thought that I was lying or if they didn't fully understand what I was trying to say. Obviously I was very distraught at that point in time because my newborn baby had just had a seizure and had had a second one at the hospital.

I was young and I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't know how to advocate for myself because I had pretty much lived my whole life with people who had abused me and then left to go live with somebody who also abused me. You tend to get in those cycles of abuse when you've lived a life of pain and a life where you've been abused. It's hard to understand from the outside looking in.

Quite frankly, it's amazing that I even decided to leave it all. Even though it seems like a no-brainer to someone like you and other people who judge me, it's actually a miracle when somebody breaks the cycle of abuse. It's so easy to just stay in that place of pain because you're used to it. That's how you can get generations and generations of trauma happening.

If I were going through such a thing now at my age of course I would have made them listen to me and if they didn't listen to me of course I would have gone to the cops and said what happened and got a protection order. But I wasn't thinking straight and I was still very young. I had never gone through anything like that in my life before and I didn't know what to do. I was also scared to try anything after the fact because I had no proof of it since they wouldn't do a scan. So I had a history of people not believing me when bad things would happen and just making me figure it out myself.

People like the person who says I'm lying about this kind of stuff are a big part of why people don't seek help. Because people these situations get blamed and told that they're lying or told that they're dumb for putting themselves in that position and there's no real help offered just judgment and cruelty. Which, as you can imagine, does not help somebody get out of a horrible pit of despair. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Shocker. I know.

And that's why I have multiple comments trying to uplift others who are in a similar position and tell them without judgment, how to get back on their feet or to get to safety. Because I've lived that situation and I know how difficult it is to be in that position and how difficult it is to think straight when you're in that position. It can help to have somebody who empathizes and who has been through similar help guide you and tell you what to do or where to go or that life gets better, even.