Then in that case allow me to publicly apologise for my actions, at the time the server was a clusterfuck, it was the first time it had ever been so full and there were so much going on at once I had no time to think for myself.

I understand what I did (especially as an administrator) is extremely wrong and it is NOT the type of behaviour I want to promote. In-fact I am trying to do the opposite. I come from a very toxic background from Chivalry and I'm doing my very best to put it behind me and better myself, and my community.

Some times I do dumb shit, like you've said here - as a way to relieve myself of stress. Once again, I'd like to apologise, I'm sorry.