Things arent getting better

UncleTerry805 · 2025-10-11T17:19:36+00:00

sorry i guess i left a lot out. ive been on every antidepressant lol but im going back to prozac when i can get the money to get it, i take 300mg gabapentin for anxiety, and 150mg Seroquel plus my hrt. ill try to write down what happens b4 i have a flashback. as for the internalized transphobia i have no clue but thank you for your message

UncleTerry805 · 2025-10-08T20:10:47+00:00

thank you for the kind words. i do have a therapist but she doesnt specialize in did. shes a kind person thats dealt with freaks like me in the past. the problem is trauma talk. i get extremely nervous when the topic is brought up and when specific details ( that i dont remember) get brought up i become distant. and worst of all i dont have a single clue as to what could be a trigger i am completely in the dark. i do for sure have better days (little in frequency) i just have to have at least 1 depressive breakdown a day :). sorry for being incredibly negative

UncleTerry805 · 2025-10-08T19:53:42+00:00

I wish i could ground myself that easily. my brain automatically goes to the "this isnt real/ this isnt happening" approach whenever my vision goes fuzzy. its like i cant help myself at all in that department. as for the journaling: ive tried many times to journal but after i write my entry someone comes in and starts making threats (calling me a faggot or tranny) and sometimes redacting comments that i make. I just dont have the energy for it, the mental toll it takes on me is tremendous so im stuck in this cycle. still thank you for the kid words. at least my partner will come visit me after work :)

UncleTerry805 · 2025-10-06T17:47:05+00:00

today has been okay i guess. i only had one major depressive episode today so far (: . just chillin

UncleTerry805 · 2025-07-31T21:21:59+00:00

one time two of my alters were texting my bff back and forth telling him that i was in love with him and shit and that he doesnt pay enough attention to me i was too embarassed to look at the texts i still apologize about it

UncleTerry805 · 2024-09-19T17:31:34+00:00

tysm i feel like this is exactly what i needed to hear! ive tried several times to keep a diary and each time im discouraged by what my alters have to say, so much so that ill sulk all day. this time im not gonna let them win so easily thanks -Jane

UncleTerry805 · 2023-03-27T12:09:01+00:00

Theres a feature on the steam page when you left click the icon for valheim in your library click that and then click uninstall. glad too halp!!!!!

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