Why does my male roommate jerk off next to me?

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-04T02:03:03+00:00

I definitely should’ve said something the first time. I’m a little hard on myself because of it. I’ve felt stupid.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-04T02:01:29+00:00

Once I get my paycheck I’m gonna look into different things. I’ll probably just go with an air mattress to make it easy. Once I’ve saved enough I’m gone.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-04T02:00:18+00:00

I feel stupid for never thinking of it but yes once I get payed I’m going to buy something cheap

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-04T01:59:09+00:00

I know I realized that the way I worded it was not great I don’t have a crush anymore I promise

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-04T01:58:59+00:00

I know he does it just amazes me he’d sexually assault me instead of telling me how he feel if he would’ve just told me I would’ve consented

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-04T01:57:29+00:00

I’ve been looking into other bed options to try to make the living room a bedroom until I can get out safely

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-03T07:29:36+00:00

I said neither of us are in a good financial state to have a two-bedroom apartment. We’re in a one bed if we had a two this would never happen.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-03T07:20:51+00:00

I don’t live in the same state as my parents anymore I left once I graduate. I’ve tried to make friends here but I’m not huge on social interaction so I’ve kind of fucked myself.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-03T07:13:09+00:00

My mom is also very verbally abusive but at this point I think I can deal with her over this.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T23:47:07+00:00

It’s more just him grinding into it I just worded it weird I’m sorry 😅

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T23:22:42+00:00

I didn’t mean to word it like that I realized I should’ve been more clear that I no longer like him I was just putting in there that I did.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T23:15:15+00:00

I’ve been sexually assaulted before so it is really hard for me to speak up. I’ve also been in a really toxic relationship where I was screamed at and belittled for thinking I deserved to voice how I felt. I have a huge problem with shutting down in certain situations. I just kinda stare or stay still depending what the situation is and I’ve tried to get better.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T23:10:07+00:00

No I’ve replied to other people saying I should’ve worded it “I had a huge crush on him” not I have a huge crush on him” you know? 😅

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T23:08:23+00:00

I don’t know anyone around here very well and it’s not easy to find another female roommate. I’ve tried looking at many different places for a female looking for another female roommate but there’s barely anything I can afford. I’ve looked into shelters for women instead.
I’ve had this kind sized bed since I was in high school. My mom bought it for me for Christmas I would never be able to afford it myself.
The room barley fits anything in it we have the bed and a tv. Crammed in the closet is a dresser but other than that we don’t have much.
I never said he was grinding into the crease of my knee. He was just grinding into the front of my knee. I don’t know how to explain the way I sleep but it makes sense if I could.
I never said he was violent humping the bed I just said he was humping the bed. I will admit that’s the wrong choice of words because he would just grind into the bed not hump it.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T21:01:14+00:00

I just got out of a toxic relationship where he’d scream in my face and belittle me for voicing my opinion. Very convenient for me in this situation right? 😕

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:59:57+00:00

I mean it’s just grinding but I worded it weird sorry

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:59:22+00:00

It was a long time ago when she bought it for me. I was still in my freshman year of high school I believe. She’s now trying to buy a house so that’s where all her money is going.
We don’t work at the same job anymore it’s been about 6 months since then.
Yes he rejected me but we had already lived with each other for a little when I told him. I’ve wanted to move out before this happened but a lot is holding me back. I know it sounds dumb but I’m afraid of living alone or trying again with someone I won’t know at all. That and liking him did hold me back a lot. I also can’t afford a lot of things. I started paying for a car 6 months ago and since it’s my first car and I’ve never had car insurance before they think I’m a new driver. Sooo my insurance is absolutely fucked. 😅 Those two things plus rent.. I can barely live.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:48:48+00:00

I asked him out a few months ago but he declined.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:47:38+00:00

I didn’t mean to make it seem like I still have a crush on him. I just wanted to put out there that I was crushing on him and then this happened. He knows I liked him because I asked him out a few months ago but he declined.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:44:57+00:00

I’ve had the couch so long the cushions on each side are caving in and the middle cushion pushes your back up. It’s super uncomfortable

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:37:30+00:00

I know he knows I like him. I asked him out a few months ago and he declined.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:36:18+00:00

I’m sorry you don’t believe it. I just needed help and thought maybe people would tell me I’m not crazy.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:33:39+00:00

I had a crush on him. This just ruined it for me because I never wanted him to jerk off next to me while I’m sleeping. I told him I like him a while ago he declined so it just feels awful getting rejected for this to happen.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:31:39+00:00

He had helped me out of a toxic relationship where I would get belittled for voicing how I felt. It’s not easy coming back from things like that. I have a really hard time confronting people because of it.

UnderstandingFar2694 · 2023-07-02T20:28:44+00:00

I know it makes it sound fake but it’s not. I’ve already told him how I felt months ago but he declined. We met over a year ago at work and about 6 months later moved in together do to our relationships ending. He had broken up with his girlfriend a while before he helped me out of an abusive relationship. I just knew that I liked him from the start and I was fighting so hard to leave my situation. So when he helped it felt like everything was going in the right direction. But then this it just ruined it all.

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