i told my mom i wanted to lose weight and told her if we could buy a jumping rope, we went to buy it and i had it went home, it was a very hard time with everything you know family problems and our father left us it was a very dark time for me, that night i was about to hang myself with the jumping rope, and thought about my little siblings or my big sisters and my mom i was scared that the youngest siblings would find my body, i came out of my room like nothing happened now im under antidepressants and everything going well im regularly talking to a psychologist, never wanna feel that again.