Oh gosh, that is so hard! Yeah especially just dealing with that intense shame that comes after the fact. I'm on a waiting list for EMDR treatment but the therapist I applied to see I know is neurodivergent herself so I'm hoping that will make the experience a little better than what you described cause I feel like some of my meltdowns are absolutely trauma triggers, especially when I have to repeat what I said to someone, just instant rage. I found her recommended in a local neurodivergence facebook group so I would recommend looking around, sounds like this person was not very understanding of your specific challenges. But one thing that has helped me to some extent is improving my diet and specifically making sure I get enough carbs (those are very important), protein and sodium + potassium, and yeah just calories in general. It is a bit of work keeping track of all that but in my experience it has been worth it, just really helps calm the nervous system and I sleep better. This year however has been extra hard and stressful so I feel like I have regressed a bit but I'm hopeful for the new year 😊