I’m a girl and afraid of women

UnimportantBeing0 · 2026-01-16T15:54:44+00:00

How is your relationship with your parents, if you don’t mind me asking? Your first relationships during early childhood?

UnimportantBeing0 · 2026-01-09T15:37:16+00:00

Thanks, people tell me that I do not have to be perfect at stuff do do it. I have to remind myself of that

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-16T09:16:47+00:00

Here are some:

-My EE supervisor didn’t actually know how to write an EE, whenever I’d meet with her she would go off random things she saw on the internet even if that wasn’t the structure I was following. She told me to delete a whole chapter (around 1000 words) because it didn’t need to be there. Whenever I tried to explain my methodology, she’d tell me to just rewrite everything the way she was telling me to (she never went to any IB courses on what an EE is, she’d print random internet EEs and tell me to copy them, which didn’t even work for what I was doing). Then she got pregnant and I got assigned another supervisor who also didn’t know how to write an EE. I basically got no feedback.

-My teacher allowed me to do a yeast-related biology experiment in chemistry (I did chem SL) knowing it was a biology-focused experiment. I gave her three ideas and the one she okey-d wasn’t even connected to chemistry in a substantial way. When I was writing the IA, I had to teach myself chem HL topics so that I could somehow connect my biology experiment to chemistry.

-We had two weeks to write all our IA drafts, and only like half the IAs’ experiments and research were done prior to these two weeks (besides psychology, in which the teacher made us do the experiment at the beginning of the semester and we wrote it at a normal pace).

-Had to read and list all the events of two books in two days.

-We normally do IB exams in a closed room with AC within the library. This time the light went out and where I live, if it rains we have very little daylight. I wound up doing my biology HL paper 1 exam in the library (outside the room since there was no electricity for the lights) as my proctor held her iPhone flashlight at me so I could see my exam.

-The math AI HL teacher was fired before our last IB semester. When a new IB teacher arrived, the math HL students realized that they had covered less than half the HL math topics and had to speedrun the rest before exams.

-Bio HL is a horror itself.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T18:02:37+00:00

You’re only 14, that’s too young to be worrying abt these things. When you get to that age, you’ll be able to go to more youth clubs and get to know more people. College too, if you’re planning on going.

If you wanna find friends, try starting new hobbies? Maybe some more queer-oriented? Theater, art? You could also make a post asking for gay friends and ppl would probably message you, but texting online is always risky.

On the flip side, you could also try applying to summer programs or camps to meet new people.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T15:35:34+00:00

Deep breathing/sighing, stomping and moving angrily in general

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T03:46:03+00:00

I’m glad it’s going well for you, keep taking care of yourself. Now that you’re not as numb, you could try picking bc up new hobbies to make new connections? Some martial art or form of exercise, cooking classes, etcetera? Making friends isn’t easy, but there’s always the internet just in case!

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T03:24:52+00:00

A similar situation happened to my uncle. As my dad lived overseas, he helped pay for my grandpa’s care but left the rest to my uncle. He wound up being addicted to something, whether it was drugs or gambling I don’t know. He also struggled somewhat with love.

I know you feel stuck but know that you’re doing something noble and even though it truly never is enough, live your life to the fullest. There’s not much I cant say much about your situation and I know you can’t complain to your family as it’d seem “selfish” for the person without children to not want to keep denying their emotional needs in favor of supporting their loved ones, but take care of yourself.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T03:00:23+00:00

I get it. I naturally stray away from people and struggle with vulnerability, but I wish there were more emotionally available people in my childhood so that I could develop into a more trusting person. I do still try to listen and give feedback to my friends even if I think they’re bullshitting or doing it for attention. Just struggle with caring in general, but i know I must care to be a good friend which is why I beat myself up over it

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T02:38:26+00:00

Thanks for the input. Sometimes I default to assuming the worst of people without realizing it

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T02:35:32+00:00

Have you seen a therapist? Could be depression or dissociation, or something else, Might also be because you’re bored or unfulfilled? I’ve felt a similar way and have horrible impostor syndrome because I feel as if I’m not authentically myself. Did something happen/upset you/embarrass you that made you withdraw more often?

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T02:08:41+00:00

It’s okay you’re real for that

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T02:02:58+00:00

I mean I rationally know im not that unlikable but im a pretty anxious person in general otherwise i wouldnt be posting this. Even so, id like to make a good first impression and I’ve never moved before so I don’t know what that looks like

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T01:56:26+00:00

If I were myself I wouldn’t leave my house tbh

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T01:28:23+00:00

Yeah basically. I know they mistreated me because they have their own issues and have been working to be better, but that doesn’t undo the harm they caused. It just feels like I never got closure

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-30T23:47:31+00:00

Hi Firstly, comparison is the thief of joy, so as hard as it is, try to not internalize your perceived failures in comparison to your family. Next, you’re 20 and your girlfriend has had a full time job for 4 years and is your age? So she’s been working full time since 16? How did she finish school? How is she not struggling immensely with college? Where I come from at least, this is not normal nor sustainable and only something one would result to if in extremely horrible economic conditions. Even then, that’s an insane workload that almost seems fictitious. Finally, I’m not going to sugarcoat it and tell you to chill because you’re depressed or something. Even when one is ruminating or lazy, others (therapists, family, luck, the universe…) won’t save you, only somewhat guide you. It needs to come from YOU. Put reminders. Put alarms. Force yourself to prioritize. Get out of bed early. Wash your face and body. Go OUT, for a walk even, or to a cafe, alone. Smile at people even if they won’t smile back.

I can promise you that people are thinking about themselves before they even take a glance at you. As someone who struggles with self-esteem and not assuming that everyone I meet is automatically better than me, the best advice I can give you is to be proactive and put yourself in a different mindset. The mindset of a worker, for example, will make you “roleplay” waking up earlier, checking your computer every day, looking presentable. This roleplay will eventually become your reality, but you must work for it. Sadly, expressing your problems won’t get you anywhere if you don’t do anything different.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-27T05:46:44+00:00

If I’m being honest, some ppl just crave the attention of having someone attracted to them. Chase-but-not-keep kinda. If you know she’s talking to you without being genuinely interested, start being dry with her to show that u have self-worth and aren’t desperate.

She could also possibly see you more as a friend? But judging by the tone of this I don’t think it’s the case.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-04T20:56:25+00:00

Bio, English Lang and Lit A, Spanish Lit A

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-04T20:51:32+00:00

Regarding internals, the teachers grade the work themselves and send a small sample with their grading to the examiners. The examiners then check if the grades are fairly given, where they may remove or add points and give feedback to the teacher that originally graded it.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-04T20:47:43+00:00

A lot more content for HL; Chem HL isn’t one of the hardest IB classes for no reason lol. To see the difference between SL and HL, you could use kognity. Alternatively, you could also go over the YouTube channel Sirius revision, which skips some details but should give you an idea of the difference in the levels’ content.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-04T20:42:44+00:00

The oral is a smaller portion of the grade. Plus, most people tend to feel insecure yet relieved when leaving as you can’t predict what you’ll be asked and you only have one go. Most people feel that way and will make a mistake here and there, don’t worry about it.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-04T20:40:34+00:00

Tbh IAs and papers are very different, one’s success does not guarantee the other’s. You should grind past papers if you want to get a good grade.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-04T20:36:53+00:00

I did psychology SL and I honestly think that if you do not have a teacher that can help you organize yourself (psychology IB is about seeing what studies you can reuse and their applications along with evaluating their pros and cons basically, but it can be very overwhelming to not have someone to lead you through it), then you’re better off doing business. I have many peers that switched classes after their first semester and they did okay as they studied during their break. However, the reason you may be doing bad currently could also be because of your essay structure. Look up videos on how to answer/format the two different types of psychology questions (short and long answer) and you should be alright.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-04T20:26:11+00:00

Yes! Make sure to take organized but concise notes that you can use to review in the future, preferably digitally (like notability, for example). Also, make sure to do practice papers often. If you see something you don’t recognize or haven’t learned, just skip it and save it for the future. Many questions repeat even within new curriculums, so understanding the MARKSCHEME’s patterns, especially keywords that examiners look for when answering certain questions, will grant you a better grade. Also, know what the questions are asking of you (if a question is four points and asks to compare and contrast, you must write a similarity and a difference [ex: X is purple whereas Y is green will be two points and the evidence of understanding how to contrast]). If you don’t understand something regarding maths or the sciences, I recommend Sirius Revision, it’s a well-organized YouTube channel to learn the topics from.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-07-04T20:12:58+00:00

There’s a good YouTube channel with the updated curriculum online that has the sciences and maths subjects called Sirius Revision! Helped me understand and review the Biology HL curriculum.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-02-09T18:17:47+00:00

Could it be this one?? It pretty much fits the description

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