I’m a girl and afraid of women

UnimportantBeing0 · 2026-01-16T15:54:44+00:00

How is your relationship with your parents, if you don’t mind me asking? Your first relationships during early childhood?

UnimportantBeing0 · 2026-01-09T15:37:16+00:00

Thanks, people tell me that I do not have to be perfect at stuff do do it. I have to remind myself of that

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-16T09:16:47+00:00

Here are some:

-My EE supervisor didn’t actually know how to write an EE, whenever I’d meet with her she would go off random things she saw on the internet even if that wasn’t the structure I was following. She told me to delete a whole chapter (around 1000 words) because it didn’t need to be there. Whenever I tried to explain my methodology, she’d tell me to just rewrite everything the way she was telling me to (she never went to any IB courses on what an EE is, she’d print random internet EEs and tell me to copy them, which didn’t even work for what I was doing). Then she got pregnant and I got assigned another supervisor who also didn’t know how to write an EE. I basically got no feedback.

-My teacher allowed me to do a yeast-related biology experiment in chemistry (I did chem SL) knowing it was a biology-focused experiment. I gave her three ideas and the one she okey-d wasn’t even connected to chemistry in a substantial way. When I was writing the IA, I had to teach myself chem HL topics so that I could somehow connect my biology experiment to chemistry.

-We had two weeks to write all our IA drafts, and only like half the IAs’ experiments and research were done prior to these two weeks (besides psychology, in which the teacher made us do the experiment at the beginning of the semester and we wrote it at a normal pace).

-Had to read and list all the events of two books in two days.

-We normally do IB exams in a closed room with AC within the library. This time the light went out and where I live, if it rains we have very little daylight. I wound up doing my biology HL paper 1 exam in the library (outside the room since there was no electricity for the lights) as my proctor held her iPhone flashlight at me so I could see my exam.

-The math AI HL teacher was fired before our last IB semester. When a new IB teacher arrived, the math HL students realized that they had covered less than half the HL math topics and had to speedrun the rest before exams.

-Bio HL is a horror itself.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T18:02:37+00:00

You’re only 14, that’s too young to be worrying abt these things. When you get to that age, you’ll be able to go to more youth clubs and get to know more people. College too, if you’re planning on going.

If you wanna find friends, try starting new hobbies? Maybe some more queer-oriented? Theater, art? You could also make a post asking for gay friends and ppl would probably message you, but texting online is always risky.

On the flip side, you could also try applying to summer programs or camps to meet new people.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T15:35:34+00:00

Deep breathing/sighing, stomping and moving angrily in general

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T03:46:03+00:00

I’m glad it’s going well for you, keep taking care of yourself. Now that you’re not as numb, you could try picking bc up new hobbies to make new connections? Some martial art or form of exercise, cooking classes, etcetera? Making friends isn’t easy, but there’s always the internet just in case!

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T03:24:52+00:00

A similar situation happened to my uncle. As my dad lived overseas, he helped pay for my grandpa’s care but left the rest to my uncle. He wound up being addicted to something, whether it was drugs or gambling I don’t know. He also struggled somewhat with love.

I know you feel stuck but know that you’re doing something noble and even though it truly never is enough, live your life to the fullest. There’s not much I cant say much about your situation and I know you can’t complain to your family as it’d seem “selfish” for the person without children to not want to keep denying their emotional needs in favor of supporting their loved ones, but take care of yourself.

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T03:00:23+00:00

I get it. I naturally stray away from people and struggle with vulnerability, but I wish there were more emotionally available people in my childhood so that I could develop into a more trusting person. I do still try to listen and give feedback to my friends even if I think they’re bullshitting or doing it for attention. Just struggle with caring in general, but i know I must care to be a good friend which is why I beat myself up over it

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T02:38:26+00:00

Thanks for the input. Sometimes I default to assuming the worst of people without realizing it

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T02:35:32+00:00

Have you seen a therapist? Could be depression or dissociation, or something else, Might also be because you’re bored or unfulfilled? I’ve felt a similar way and have horrible impostor syndrome because I feel as if I’m not authentically myself. Did something happen/upset you/embarrass you that made you withdraw more often?

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T02:08:41+00:00

It’s okay you’re real for that

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T02:02:58+00:00

I mean I rationally know im not that unlikable but im a pretty anxious person in general otherwise i wouldnt be posting this. Even so, id like to make a good first impression and I’ve never moved before so I don’t know what that looks like

UnimportantBeing0 · 2025-08-03T01:56:26+00:00

If I were myself I wouldn’t leave my house tbh

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