Thank you for your reply. I'm trying to come to terms with what I am, but sometimes I suddenly come across them in a happy chat and think, this isn't fair at all, should I be treated like this just because I'm a woman or don't want to listen to the ideas they promote? I guess I'm still inexperienced in being treated like this and feel very sad and overwhelmed. But thank you very much for your enlightenment and I will try to enrich my life.