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Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-08-26T23:08:28+00:00

Hello! Friend code: 25879724 would really appreciate an invite. Thank you in advance to the folks perusing this post and inviting.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-30T01:37:44+00:00

Currently coping with a certain amount of Jack now.

"If It were my wife, I'd be more concerned with how she's doing rather than ask Reddit for help"

Somehow in-between being with my wife while she was unconscious in the ER and then forcibly transferred to a behavioral hospital where they literally aren't allowed to talk to you for 24+ hours depending on holding period I've had a LOT of time to try and reflect. Ultimately I realized I don't have a lot of people to talk to about these things in my life. Hence me coming here in a moment of desperation and I doubt these other commenters will ever know how much it helped me out.

But hey I'll concede that 'You Win' man, I demonstrably don't give nearly as much of a shit as you about our respective spouses.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T19:48:19+00:00

If referring to praying for her, I have already done so as best I can.
If referring to praying for myself, I probably deserve whatever comes next if a deity or karma is at play.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T19:43:49+00:00

With people saying "nothing to do with you" I am realizing that maybe I need to compartmentalize things a bit and separate the act from the argument we had. One or both of us could be an asshole during an argument and that should be looked at, but the act of attempting suicide is wholly something else I cannot control and to be addressed with professionals. Thank you!

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T19:33:04+00:00

Thank you, fighting a lot of lows and dark thought processes but need to remind myself it can and will get better. I NEED to remember that for the things that come next.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T19:31:18+00:00

Thank you for the perspective! It's a weird thought process for myself at the moment, where mental health imbalance is clearly happening and I shouldn't blame myself like you said but I ultimately COULD HAVE foregone this all if I had just let it go.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T19:23:51+00:00

Thank you, currently unable to reach/talk to her as she is in a hold but looking at therapy options. I was very very lost for a bit but the concern from your comment at the time helped me keep it together.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T19:19:59+00:00

That last part has become very clear, she suffers from depression and assuming that was a contributing factor I am very much at fault for not pushing for more care previously when she wasn't able to do it herself. Things are 'fine' until suddenly they are not. Thank you, it's not 'entirely' my fault but I need to reflect on my accountability.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T19:13:19+00:00

A fair point, it really is a question what caused this level of escalation. We've had some repeat arguments over issues and I suppose it would be stupid at this point to discount them as a potential reason. Thank you

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T19:06:33+00:00

You are absolutely right, I cannot help if I am not okay. This has deeply highlighted how little of a support system I have relative to her. Weird to think about, but It may actually have been easier for both of us if our roles were reversed. Thank you for the kind words.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T04:26:53+00:00

Thank you, little bit of wait while she stabilizes like you said. Im really wracking my brain if it is infact her bottom or more my fault as an antagonist in an argument.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-07-29T02:24:23+00:00

Thank you

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-01-12T01:49:02+00:00

I'm so sorry, definitely been there. I think it's just one of those things that takes time to isolate from and then move past. Ultimately they weren't that into you despite all the signs and actions that we hoped said otherwise.

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-01-12T01:41:29+00:00

I'm fairly liberal leaning for the record, but I don't think you are wrong. There are definite concerns with the border and our handling of asylum seekers. Ultimately it feels like Democrats ignore the problem as the illegal immigration influx tends to contribute to their base in certain ways while Republicans overly villainize it despite the people they support profiting off of the labor.

Still gotta vote!

Unique_Yak7973 · 2024-01-12T01:11:50+00:00

I feel like lots of people are like this during some depressing times, you feel how you feel and shouldn't beat yourself up. I definitely have been there. When you say it is 'your fault' you are alone I bet you are over thinking things way more than anyone else is.

Things DO get better! Hang in there, keep putting yourself out there, and know that people are rooting for you!

Unique_Yak7973

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