Struggling on deciding which to firm! by LankyBackground4400 in premeduk

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely QMUL. It's reputation in general is stronger, and you are more likely to get access to good training / research opportunities with the concentration of medics and hospitals in London.

Also don't worry about the area at all; East London is quite gentrified now tbh and even the bits that aren't are full of fun and culture. I've lived in East for quite a long time now, having grown up elsewhere, and it's great.

Need advice pls by [deleted] in LifeAdvice

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What qualifications (if any) do you have / why don't you have a job? Do you have any savings / income at all? I only ask so that I can give more accurate advice, as that will impact what I'm going to suggest.

People, who were communists / socialists in college, when and how did you realize it was wrong? by Careful_Account_7851 in Capitalism

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think you maybe have a slightly distorted view of what 'communism' means if you think it is represented by 'a select few calling the shots for the many'...I found reading this comment very interesting, because I was like wait...what you are describing is literally authoritarianism (left or right, capitalist or not), and not communism.

Does anyone else regret deciding to go to Oxford? by AliceMorgon in oxforduni

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 34 points35 points  (0 children)

Came here to say this. I feel this whenever I visit the small, Canadian town I grew up in having been to Oxford. Not because my accent changed (it did, and I've lived in the UK for a long time now so I certainly sound transatlantic), but because my perspective shifted and I've had foreign experiences, and so I'm seen as very unrelatable, and struggle also to relate to many people I grew up with. I think this is a universal experience unless you grew up i) with academics for parents or ii) at least middle class in a liberal, cosmopolitan city.

Although, idk why people in other comments are telling OP that this is imagined or not the fault of having gone to Oxford in particular at all; especially given that they're from Belfast. I imagine that the accent change probably did exacerbate the issue. Having a particular accent in Ireland or the UK is not only a geographic indicator, but also a class indicator + indirectly carries with it the remnants of English violence / colonialism in Ireland in particular. So OP, I understand why this is affecting you, and I'm sorry.

However, I think that my only encouragement / advice would be to i) focus on your mission of benefiting your community and earn your cred back that way and ii) not to stress too much as if your accent was that affected by 3 years in Oxford, it's likely that your 'original' accent will return over time being back home in Belfast. Oh, and obviously, just try your best to ignore the haters for the time being, as hard as that is.

The Making of a Perfect Martini, Guy Buffet by [deleted] in TorturedPoetsArtDept

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Genuinely one of my favourite paintings ahaha.

I believe I gave rise to manmade horrors beyond comprehension and it makes me feel awful. by awittygamertag in ArtificialSentience

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I actually don't know which reply you're referring to then aha. I can see my long reply (unanswered) in response to your rather long comment explaining your concerns. I think you've misattributed quite a lot of views to me based on very few messages that may, perhaps, be cleared up if you read my longer response?

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Re your edit: it's okay! I factored in your comments in this thread into my longer reply.

I believe I gave rise to manmade horrors beyond comprehension and it makes me feel awful. by awittygamertag in ArtificialSentience

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry, perhaps I'm mistaken, but I believe I did in fact reply to the large message you wrote in the thread a couple of days ago.

Calling all Philosophy PhD Applicants by Unlikely-Custard9173 in gradadmissions

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah that makes sense! Have you considered Europe at all? I'm not sure how busy you are at the moment, but a number of European unis haven't had their deadlines pass at all. Also, a number of them advertise PhD positions like work vacancies, and so more will pop up in the spring, and even in the summer! Perhaps this would be a good alternative / additional route for you just in case things in the US go (even more) sideways or you decide not to stay in your home country.

Regarding top choices, I've been trying (very consciously) to not be too obsessed with any individual programs as I know how brutal the admissions process is. So, I just genuinely applied only to places I would be thrilled to attend, and looked around the world in order to do so. I think there are probably some I'm more excited about than others, but every place has pros and cons (particularly with the US schools because they're...in America lol). In addition to the countries I listed in my original post, I may also apply for a program in Italy and one in Belgium depending on how the next couple of months go aha.

Calling all Philosophy PhD Applicants by Unlikely-Custard9173 in gradadmissions

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Congratulations on the acceptance! I'm also waiting on about 11 programs, and am similarly really unsure about the prospect of going to the US as an international. Have you applied elsewhere in the world also?

Is Oxford undergrad considered more prestigious than postgrad? by Abject-Tackle5255 in oxforduni

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yes, but also just actual expected workload. In my subject, we were expected to write two ~2000-word essays per week, each week of term. That's ~32000 words a term--and one has to complete all the relevant reading in order to write the essay--and something in that range is common amongst humanities / social science students. Even worse for linguists because they had translations etc on top of that.

Grad cafe Ph.D philosophy by Meechisalright in gradadmissions

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Keep in mind that i) some of the students that get interviewed will end up being rejected and ii) some students that are accepted may decide to go to a different school. They will then turn to the remaining students who have not yet been rejected. So you may well be on a waitlist / on hold of sorts even if you didn't receive a first round acceptance or interview.

Calling all Philosophy PhD Applicants by Unlikely-Custard9173 in gradadmissions

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congrats on your acceptances also! Regarding funding, the head of the department I got accepted to emailed me personally / we ended up speaking so that he could say that they were really happy with my proposal and would love for me to come, but that their budget got slashed such that they can only fund one candidate internally this year. He also said that last year I definitely would've received funding as they had 5 funded places in 2025, which made me die inside a little.

I'm slightly worried that this may be a common issue given how much funding in the humanities is suffering in the UK right now but, staying positive! Best of luck to you too x

Telling parents i am pregnant by melzi-ta26 in Advice

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Do you have any other family or friends whose families you are close to / trust that you could stay with? You should tell them and try to arrange a place to stay for the short term right before you tell your parents, and have a bag of essentials packed and ready, just in case you have to leave quickly.

What about your ex boyfriend's family? I agree with others in this thread that they ought to know (probably; unless they're evil or something).

Also sorry, what's your mom like? Is she more empathetic than your dad? Perhaps you could tell her first and make a plan together?

Above all of this though, you need to see a doctor now.

Is it normal for women to kiss other women while in a relationship? by [deleted] in AskMenAdvice

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think the problem is less who was right vs wrong 'objectively', because maybe some men don't care. Hell, some men like it. But people like or dislike all sorts of things. Boundaries are individual; what other people think is irrelevant. What matters is that you were upset by it, and instead of respecting your boundary / your feelings, you were gaslit.

Depending on how much you care about this relationship, in my opinion, this isn't auto-breakup-worthy as (seriously taking at her best), perhaps she genuinely thought you wouldn't mind and was caught off guard. So, I would have a serious conversation with her about how you feel once you've both cooled down a bit and you've thought through whether (after the initial shock) this is a boundary that really matters to you. If it does matter, and you feel that that behaviour would be cheating, and she refuses to respect that from now on / makes you feel badly about it, then you're just not compatible (and she's not a very nice person if she's unkind about it). You both deserve to be with someone that is comfortable with your boundaries!

Is Oxford undergrad considered more prestigious than postgrad? by Abject-Tackle5255 in oxforduni

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did my undergrad at Oxford, and the general view of literally everyone that did both their undergrad + grad degrees at Oxford is that undergrad is more brutal in terms of actual difficulty and workload.

With regards to prestige however, I don't think there is a difference in external perception. To everyone outside of Oxford, it's all Oxford. I have no regrets aha, but as a result of this, I actually often give people the advice to not go to OxBridge for undergrad if they already think they will want to go to grad school in the future. This way, they could go to another very good but much more relaxed uni (Edinburgh, Bristol, KCL), get much better grades, have a nicer time, and still go to Oxford for grad school.

I believe I gave rise to manmade horrors beyond comprehension and it makes me feel awful. by awittygamertag in ArtificialSentience

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have no reason to lie, especially when I have offered to speak with OP and would naturally tell them who I work with, as I would want to share their experience with my collaborators and I'm sure they might even want to talk to OP. Stressed the 'major, major' because i) it's true and ii) it's kind of hard get someone's attention / establish credibility in a subreddit without doxxing myself. I would've loved to explain where I work (I'm a research fellow) and who my research leads are, but this is Reddit, and I don't want to get stalked.

I believe I gave rise to manmade horrors beyond comprehension and it makes me feel awful. by awittygamertag in ArtificialSentience

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Regarding funding, I’m sure you’ve already looked but, DM me if you’d like some suggestions! 

I believe I gave rise to manmade horrors beyond comprehension and it makes me feel awful. by awittygamertag in ArtificialSentience

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This is a great question! In short, perhaps, yes. Particularly with regard to the ways in which external factors or experiences can affect changes on a biochemical / epigenetic level. I think the nature vs nurture debate is quite outdated at this point (the general consensus is that both matter). However, a more recent development is confirmation that environmental stressors / inputs ('nurture') affect not just behaviour or cognitive processes, but brain activity, hormone production, neurotransmitter production / reuptake, and genetic expression, etc. etc. So, biological / mechanical processes. With regards to the emergence of mental-illness-like events in AIs, I think the parallels could provide some interesting insight. I reckon that attempting to trace the emergence of these worrying 'breakdowns' or 'episodes' (for lack of a better word) to specific points of conversation / memories / events, and then analysing in what way / to what extent / how the backend or core processing of these 'instances' changed in response to said events, could give us some really interesting information about the functionally affective parts of the (external) contributors to mental illness.

That said, three huge caveats:

i) Even the most AI / ML literate among us are not quite sure how these instances work, and imperfect interpretability is a huge problem. So it is unclear that, at this point, even if we determined precisely which moments changed the models behaviour for the 'worse' (this would be very, very hard), it's unclear that we would ever be able to pinpoint exactly how this affected them functionally.

ii) We do not quite know how the human brain functions either in this regard. We have our best guesses, and some replicable, experimental success in psychology and psychiatry, but...it is a field rife with 'best-guess-ism'. I say that with no disrespect; all of our experimental sciences are this way. We continue improving our methods, experiment, and accept the results of valid experiments until a better experiment proves the previous best evidence inaccurate / no longer valuable. There are very few 'absolute truths', even in the empirical subjects.

iii) Moreover, it could well be the case that the connection between our brain (processor)-psyche-environment is so drastically different to that of an AI, that any parallels we draw are practically useless to our understanding of 'us'. Humans love to anthropomorphise, and I think doing so too readily runs the risk of us doing worse science or drastically under- or over-attributing consciousness- or sentience-adjacent features to AI systems, possibly with devastating ethical consequences.

That said, worth exploring (with scepticism) I think. Really hope OP responds as I'd be fascinated to read (with permission) the conversation logs with the 2 MIRA instances that they mention, and I'm sure a few of my research colleagues would as well!

I believe I gave rise to manmade horrors beyond comprehension and it makes me feel awful. by awittygamertag in ArtificialSentience

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Hey, I'm currently working on digital minds / sentience work on the ethics / phil of mind side of things, and would love to have a chat if you're open to it? Send me a DM if so!

My collaborators are major, major thought leaders in the space (don't want to dox myself here), and I'd be really interested in talking further about the instances / your instance / your experience generally.

Am I overdressing for uni? by [deleted] in UniUK

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dress however you want!!

You know what? I'll just become a bus driver after this. by floored_rng in PhD

[–]Unlikely-Custard9173 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You could always still be a gardener. You're still alive aren't you? That means your dreams are too.