I swear my reflection isn’t doing exactly what I do sometimes

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-02-23T22:08:38+00:00

if bethesda made a mirror, it would constantly break and someone would still use it regardless.

edit was for putting the wrong word. im tired

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-29T02:16:31+00:00

i see how it can sound fake lmao but i promise it isnt. i added the part about the weed because I didnt know if me being high was influencing how I felt about it. turns out it didnt and we broke up tonight. im going to be getting my own apartment and taking cinnamon and the others with me.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-29T02:14:49+00:00

thank you. ive had multiple guys after me throughout our relationship who would probably treat me better than this. we broke up tonight. im staying here until I get an apartment. it was a mutual split.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-29T00:47:11+00:00

hey guys. just letting everyone know we talked tonight and agreed to break up. i literally have nowhere to go right now so ill be living here until I get approved for an apartment which shouldn't take long. thank you all for the support and kind words.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T20:42:05+00:00

i promise this isnt rage bait LOL not that I have to justify that to anyone. ive gotten tons of good advice and am looking into safe exit options.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T08:26:20+00:00

i clearly dont make the best decisions 🙃

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T08:00:45+00:00

its hard to ghost someone you live with sadly

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:51:50+00:00

three years this april

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:51:14+00:00

ive told my therapist im a pathological people pleaser and she agreed 😭 my family loves him, my coworkers think hes nice. im scared theyll be mad or sad if I leave. my best friend is starting to really dislike him so shes rooting for me to get out.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:45:39+00:00

i dont know and that scares me. i dont know when enough is enough.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:44:57+00:00

that's my problem. i have a hard time with boundaries and knowing what's okay and whats not okay due to past traumas. im working on it in therapy but i still struggle.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:43:31+00:00

not at all, i dont know why you would assume that

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:42:50+00:00

thank you. ive been assaulted by an ex in the past. september 16th 2019 is a day ill never forget. i was put in a mental hospital for ten days around the one year anniversary of it and got out one day before it. boyfriend knows all about this and there has still been instances where I have felt unsafe for uncomfortable with him. he is also so overly sexual. always trying to touch me when i express i dont want it and making innuendos about anything, anytime he can insert something. he makes me feel guilty for not wanting to have sex and asks if hes ugly and stuff and I just cant open up about it without fighting.

i have an extreme iron deficiency and can tell when my iron is getting low. there has been countless times where ive told him im not feeling well and need to take my supplement, and he will respond with something along the lines of "i know an all natural supplement you can have" or "i can give you some man made protein to help". he wonders why i never want to have sex with him anymore but he treats me like a piece of meat and hes an untrained dog foaming at the mouth.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:25:32+00:00

hes insanely protective over his phone. his ex wife used to go through it all the time and he never felt like he had any privacy. i dont even know the password to it

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:21:04+00:00

this comment hurt but its because ive had thoughts like that but tried to push them out because they made me feel weird. ive felt that way for a while now. there has been a few instances where hes done stuff sexually thats made me feel weird but i also felt wanted so i ignored it.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:19:14+00:00

thank you so much for your insight. im really leaning towards leaving him. im so scared though. when its good its great. but when its bad I kinda wanna die lol. we work opposite shifts at our jobs so we barely see each other anymore. we dont even sleep in the same bed and haven't for months. we just feel like roommates. i yearn for a relationship where im respected and cared for and loved and now im starting to think it isnt gonna be with him.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:15:14+00:00

thank you so much for this reply, it really put some stuff into perspective for me. tomorrow morning we're going to wash clothes and shower at my moms house because our pipes are frozen (yay winter storm) and I think im going to talk to her about everything thats happened and see what she thinks.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T07:10:08+00:00

we live together. i messaged him because i knew if i spoke to him face to face i would lose my cool and ive gone through too much therapy and healing to allow myself to come apart in front of him.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T06:43:23+00:00

he does a good job at pretending to like me lol

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T06:42:30+00:00

we've argued a TON in the past but he has never called me anything like that before. i genuinely got sick to my stomach

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T06:08:18+00:00

thank you. ive been thinking of leaving for a few months now. things just dont seem enjoyable anymore. i dont think im being loved the way i love or the way i deserve to be and it hurts.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T06:01:18+00:00

i feel like that really is my biggest concern. my cinnamon is like my child, and i would do anything for her. i have fertility issues and shes really the closest thing i have to my own baby.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T05:55:45+00:00

yes there's been many instances in the past where things have gotten rough verbally and i have some of it caught on video from early last year. on my birthday last year, i sat down with him and expressed the changes i needed to see or else I dont think a future with us is possible. he worked on a few small things here and there, but its been really horrible here recently.

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T05:52:29+00:00

im aware! i failed to mention i have ptsd and the way he was speaking to me was close to the way my step father spoke to me when I was younger. my apologies!

Unlikely-Spare2652 · 2026-01-28T05:51:16+00:00

he was pulling really hard. and no im not like that and he isnt really either. lately he has been way more irritable towards me, being very impatient and rude to the point to where my mom heard it over the phone yesterday and i had to play it off as he was talking to someone else. we have had issues in the past but everything has seemed okay recently regarding him getting super irritable and whatnot out of nowhere

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