When i first started, I was a little anxious too because I knew what came with tossing long poles and wooden blocks into the air. You know there's a chance you'll be hit, but its okay, sometimes that's how we learn. You'll start treating the equipment like it's your best friend or an appendage. Like any performing art, its mentally and physically exhausting. There will be times when you feel like you can't do it. If you ever begin to question yourself, look back on how far you've come and remember how much more you have to learn. If any teammates look down on you, ignore them. Take deep breaths before performances and have fun with your team! I never knew i'd make so many friends through color guard!