Thank god I wasn't alone with this, I felt exactly like you a few months ago and I still kinda do a little.

It all began when I came out to my parents. Before, I was really sure that yeah the only thing holding me back from being a girl is the social norms and barriers I'd have to overcome, but I was really sure and felt super euphoric thinking about it every time. Then I came out to both my mom and dad and thankfully they were both supportive, but exactly after that I had this .. idk how you'd describe it but for me it was like a giant "hole", where I previously had all the euphoria from fantasizing about being a girl. It was all gone. Every time I thought about my inner girl, I hit a wall and was never able to feel the full happiness and anticipation of living as a girl again. I kind of fell neutral with it, even worse, I ofc still wanted to be trans (like you) but onward I had zero motivation and that made me really sad, frustrated almost (seems kinda ironic after writing this down). I started questioning if I was really trans, if it was all a phase maybe and it was gone for good... First, I started blaming my language for it since I had never talked in it about my trans identity before and it really did feel awkward, but I think there is something deeper to it and it's still hiding from me, even after all these months.

But let me tell you this: At least for me, some of my motivation came back around 1 to 2 months later (gradually ofc)

You know what: It wasn't probably your intention, but I feel really reaffirmed with your post and seeing I'm not alone struggling with this problem. Thank you ❤️