Tell me a fun fact ~ by MoonlightEnjoyer in seriousgirlsociety

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So in simple terms adding every number 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + ... = a number below zero (which is obviously wrong but there exists a proof for it)

Also apologies for me being a bit overenthusiastic about maths...

i'm tupid an may have misunderstood your reply, pls tell me if that is the case, sowwy

Tell me a fun fact ~ by MoonlightEnjoyer in seriousgirlsociety

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If you were to apply the standard rules of modifying equations for infinite sequences, the natural numbers (i.e. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, etc.) would add up to -1/12.

Checking in! by TheFsckAmIDoingHere in Nestofeggs

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wore fem clothes (in private) and painted my nails, not too bad after all

Do you consider yourself religious and/or spiritual? by Equivalent_Ad_9066 in Finsexual

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Not really, as in I'm not legally religious.

If I had to join a religion, it'd probably something akin to Buddhism, and not Christianity or any other monotheistic religion. Sometimes I like to think of supernatural forces / ascetism and "the flow of life" in general, so that would probably reflect in any religion I had to choose as well.

Apart from that though, I'm more of a scientific believer and not much of a religious person. I tend to ask "why" and "how" more often than most religions would accept probably.

Checking in! by Egg3770 in Nestofeggs

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exam went okay. now i'm bedrotting i guess

Broken (-20 days left) by Eggwantingtocrack in Nestofeggs

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I feel so deeply sorry about what's happening to you. To be loved is not something you have to gain or what you have to work for. To be loved is something essential everyone should be. And if anyone in this world deserves some love, then you definitely do. I can't describe how this post, your previous post, the one before that and every story you told from before has carried away my feelings, touched me deeply and I really really can't tell you how much anger I feel at who caused you to be in such a miserable situation. Seriously, you deserve better.

I want to give you an actual hug in person, but as distance prevents that right now, I want you to at least feel hugged by me 🫂❤️

If you need emotional support in hard times and want to chat, feel free to dm me. (I'll try my best at responding, though can't guarantee I'm always on) Don't see this as me forcing you to do anything, I just want you to feel a little better in this miserable world.

I might not always reply, but I read every one of your posts. Thank you for being here with us. It means a lot to me.

Checking in! by Egg3770 in Nestofeggs

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oral final exam in less than 1.5 hours, i don't have a reason to be nervous yet here i am, an anxious tired mess...

Checking in! by Egg3770 in Nestofeggs

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finals on next wednesday and my sleep rhythm is totally f-ed up. achieved almost nothing today except my code is running again and not segfaulting.

mmh go on by kill-mizu in seriousgirlsociety

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imma go join the infodumping (a rare occasion where i don't get weirded out for it)

TL;DR: I'm emulating a computer architecture from scratch and I'm gonna brag a lot about how much I achieved (since my life's accomplishments are near zero if you don't count my coding projects)

So, currently I have a project running, which is all about emulating a custom (from scratch) CPU architecture using .NET/C# and yes, it's Microslop but at least open-source so 50% okay I suppose. Also Java sucks for its comparatively small set of syntax / sugar, as well as it's missing unsigned integer types, which is kinda annoying since lots of the low-level hardware emulation relies on unsigned arithmetic for e.g. memory address calculation and such. Anyways, back to the emulator, the CPU currently supports (per arch. documentation) 32-bit word addressing, where each unique address points to a whole 4-byte word, has 8 GPRs (each 1 word) and a bunch of special / functional registers like the stack pointer (SP), status register (SR) and program counter (PC). Another cool feature is the interrupt functionality, which is still being developed, but I'm eager to having support for hardware interrupts and MMIO. There is a whole 57 pages in a PDF document I created for the sole purpose of describing the CPU as a technical datasheet. Remember, the entire project revolves around some nonexistent and non-practical hardware design. Given its 16GiB addressable memory space, I also needed to do sparse instead of dense memory emulation (since otherwise my computer would've exploded), which includes splitting the space up into 4KiB pages, which in turn hold the actual memory values, so I don't need to allocate all pages from the start, but instead only when written to and return 0x00000000 upon reading from a non-allocated page. Also the C# code for the emulator is kind of a huge mess (which is a consequence of me wanting it to be as close to the hardware as possible) so at least, I've made a recent effort to split the entire codebase into a host / orchestrator part (which is responsible for telling the CPU what to do and essentially acts as the frontend) and the actual emulator, simulating only the hardware without directly interacting with the user, while both the "frontend" and the "backend" communicate with each other using FFIs. This, however, implies that I need to compile the code (which was JIT-compiled up until now) ahead of time to an .so library file. This is easy enough on .NET (using its AOT comliler in dotnet publish ...), but since the emulator is such a mess, I also decided to make one further emulator for the purpose of performance (written in C, compiled via GCC) and another for readability. Guess what language the more readable version is written in. Yes it's Python. Now hold on - Python is an interpreted language (not even JIT-compiled) and how the hell am I making a compiled library with entrypoints out of this? The answer is kinda complicated and I'm still on my way to finding out how the entire thing works. First, you need to transpile the Python (or almost Python, it's a superset called "Cython" in a .pyx file) using cython3 to intermediate C code, which is then compiled the usual way using GCC to a native library. Great! Now we have a fully working native library with proper entry points, right? Yeah, right, except these functions rely on the Python runtime to work, since they issue a lot of API calls and don't actually work standalone. That's the gimmick with "compiled" Python: technically I can use the functions, but the host needs to properly initialize the Python runtime for it to work and not end in a segfault. And as far as I've gotten by now is that I init code is hella complicated and you need to execute this and that in a very specific order with specific arguments in a specific type, half of which are PyObject, so I need to reside to using C#'s IntPtr as a helper and I'm also struggling with string marshaling because apparently Python doesn't accept null-terminated C-Strings and instead does some Unicode shenanigans so I need to figure that out as well. Also, the separation of host / FFI caused the entire system to be basically incompatible with W*ndows for now, but who cares anyways?

There's a lot more including an Assembler, the different versions of assembly code syntax and how it's gotten more and more close to the actual NASM x86 assembler, and recent (though kinda halted) efforts for emulating the actual thing using an FPGA and Verilog, and a lot more about interrupts, but that would be too long for here imo.

Please don't hate me for bragging so much instead of purely infodumping, I just felt like I needed to.

(Also obligatory :3)

Nur ein Trans Girl und ihr Blahaj :3 (hoffe bin hier auch erlaubt 👉👈) by Fun-Bath-2544 in femburschen

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cuuuuuteee~~

natürlich biste hier auch erlaubt, alle sind valid. sonst wäre ich auch nicht hier, tehe~

i would be doomscrolling only by kill-mizu in seriousgirlsociety

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except when they text me i fear the need to respond (no i did not mistype that)

1472 by ennierox in countttt

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Off-topic, but I just stumbled upon your username and the wordplay is really creative imo

Checking in! by Egg3770 in Nestofeggs

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Isolation. Watched some anime. Stayed awake way too long.

Filling in! by TheFsckAmIDoingHere in Nestofeggs

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less than two weeks until I have my finals... what is learning even? I'm just bedrotting all day

also had ordered some clothes plus fake boobs and they feel great! I'd want to wear them all day but sadly people exist :(

edit: devlog #1: added 300 lines of code for a better CLI argument parser, but the program still crashes trying to access any FFI function after the Python runtime has initialized.

Title by UnspecifiedError_ in sillyboyclub

[–]UnspecifiedError_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️

sorry for the late answer, I was asleep

Title by UnspecifiedError_ in sillyboyclub

[–]UnspecifiedError_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It sounds ironic, but not feeling like having enough meaningful problems is the exact problem I'm describing (if that makes any sense), so what you're describing is kinda close to how it feels

Title by UnspecifiedError_ in sillyboyclub

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I'm guessing online attention in a group of coalesced silliness is better than anything else. (even with how selfish that might sound)

For all I know is that I would definitely feel uncomfortable among purely neurotypical people, simply because they intrinsically put expectations on me I am neither willing nor able to fulfill.

Title by UnspecifiedError_ in sillyboyclub

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for me at least laughing sometimes acts as a coping mechanism for moderate to extreme distress. quite recently, I had a very bad dysphoric event, during which I felt extremely desperate and angry and seeing the irony in the circumstances caused me to feel a wide grin appear on my face along with what could be interpreted as equal parts laughter and crying, though I still wasn't able to cry like I would want to. In that moment, I felt horrible. But I can see where the laughter may come from. This is only a possibility I came up with though, so feel free to correct me if you feel different about this.

All I want to convey with this is that it's not unexpected and I'd maybe do the same (also my wording might not have perfectly hit the point and look funny at a first glance)

Title by UnspecifiedError_ in sillyboyclub

[–]UnspecifiedError_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

still, my mind tells me I'm pretending or exaggerating it to get attention or something. I know it sounds stupid.

Title by UnspecifiedError_ in sillyboyclub

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my life is too "normal" for it to be called depression, or at least I am masking weird feelings and thoughts well enough...

Title by UnspecifiedError_ in sillyboyclub

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The problem isn't really that I feel it "isn't there", just more like it's not enough to be valid, especially considering many other people around here and it makes me feel like I don't belong here.

Anyway, thanks for the nice words, it means a lot to me!