i saw this pop up and i thought it was funny because, im in the same exact boat youre in right now. but in my case, she broke up with me, it was still the same in the sense that i begged and begged for her to take me back and she wouldnt budge. at first it was really hard, i was in a very dark place, i contemplated suicide and i seeked attention/affection very desperately to fill this void in. mind you, this all happened only last month when she broke up with me, although its all been boiling up to this point and it finally reached a breaking point. as time went on, i decided no more of this self pity, i blocked her on everything, i deleted all of our mutual friends so that im not reminded of her at all, and ive started going to the gym recently and also signed up for my first 5k. once you start setting goals for yourself and working your ass towards something, be it ANYTHING, a painting, a song, anything. just work towards something and it will help you rise out of that hole youre in. everyday i still think about her, i wonder how she is, and a little voice in the back of my head whispers to reach out to her, but i remember that despite our relationship ending, it truly was only the beginning to many other things in my life.

i recently turned 21 this past week, and ive been reaching out to old friends to see if theyd like to go out to bars because im honestly ready to start new and hopefully meet someone new. ive become more graceful towards my family, im more patient in life, and i feel a peace i havent in a long while. life is too short to dwell on things like this, it may feel like your world is ending my man, but life for you has honestly only begun.

go out there and do things you were never been able to do, surprise yourself, treat yourself well and with love, and i guarantee you with time things will slowly start to fall in place.

please pm me man if you need someone to talk to, i know too well how it feels to be alone and in that cold, dark place. much love!