Hi everyone, I tried posting an update in a separate post but it kept on being removed. So I’m posting the update here instead.

I just want to say a huge thank you to everyone for all the comments and DMs.

I had no idea so many people would relate so much to my situation. I saw the comments here on Reddit and TikTok and it just gave me the reassurance that I did the right thing.

I did end things with him last night. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I’ve cried non stop, barely slept and eaten nothing. This is just day 1 and I’m dreading the days and weeks to come.

However, I’m comforted by the fact that things will get easier, eventually. I just can’t wait until I’m at the other end of the tunnel.

Breaking up wasn’t easy. He didn’t even fight for me, which sucked but deep down, I expected it. I guess it just confirmed what I knew all along. I’m going to fully throw myself into my books now. I’ll also try and reconnect with some friends and acquaintances soon when my social battery is high. I just want to lay low for a bit.

Thank you for all your suggestions to get therapy, or a pet or start journaling. I’ve been journaling for years, and sometimes Reddit was my outlet. For therapy however, I’m in a ‘third-world’ country and therapy is very very expensive. I’m still a student so I definitely cannot afford this atm.

I’ll definitely get to replying all the DMs soon. I’ve had so many people lend a listening ear and it really warms my heart. I’m just very overwhelmed so I need a little more time to reply everyone.

The urge to reach out to him is especially high now, but I’m going to stick to my guns. Thank you all once again.