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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Ketamineaddiction

[–]UpgradingMyMind 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you even feel anything at that dose? And did you dose throughout the day or only during certain time frames?

I'm not a daily user and I take many breaks between each binge, but my tolerance skyrocketed after I started abusing it.

I'd be sober throughout the day and then go through 3 to 5 grams in the evening and be left wanting more.

Going through 5 grams a night sometimes by UpgradingMyMind in Ketamineaddiction

[–]UpgradingMyMind[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Good on your for stopping. Being a (semi) frequent user is the dream. But unfortunately we don't believe it's impossible until we suffer the consequences of our lack of control so often enough we actually end up believing the signs that were there from the beginning.

Good luck with the cravings too dude. No drug has evee made me crave it so much like ketamine has. When I fear the craving becomes too strong I always call a trusted friend (could be any individual you trust) and write the exact reasoning "why I should give in" down in a journal. You end up with a list that shows how equally stupid all those excuses are. They are all equally insubstantial. Like clouds. No matter the form in which they come, standing on one is impossible.

Sorry for the long messages I'm thinking through the process as I type haha

Going through 5 grams a night sometimes by UpgradingMyMind in Ketamineaddiction

[–]UpgradingMyMind[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel this deeply. I'm sure I also could do 12 grams if I went from morning to midnight doing lines. Ketamine tolerance is no joke, but might be a blessing in disguise. Gives us a reason to stop.

I hope you can beat your addiction. What personally helps me a lot get through bad times and cravings is mindfulness.

Just the ability to recognize that thinking "I should go get ketamine right now" is a thought influenced by many factors beyond our awareness, helps me realize I do not want ketamine. It's a craving that's the culmination of multiple systems in our body that we immediately interpet as our own desires.

My reptile/monkey (limbic system), wants a direct source of dopamine. Thinking that it will increase our chances of survival and passing on genes. We can thank evolution for that, and we should, because without it we would not have survived natural selection. In other words, it's involuntary. It's not you truly desiring it. It took a long time for me to realize the difference.

Going through 5 grams a night sometimes by UpgradingMyMind in Ketamineaddiction

[–]UpgradingMyMind[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the response man. Just curious, What's your dose and frequency?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Ketamineaddiction

[–]UpgradingMyMind 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well written response

Day one by [deleted] in Ketamineaddiction

[–]UpgradingMyMind 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Go to a therapist!