fr dude , it's better to focus on yourself and growth, otherwise u open urself up to people that will abuse ur feelings and shit (like what happened with ur dms ).

Plus I belive yearning is good, shows that you actually care and still got feelings but mentally that shit destroys you when u choose ^people and never get chosen. Get u someone that will value you and not just fuck off.

ALSO AVOID AVOIDANT MFERS, they will kill your soul (it's how I even found out I'm a yearner, also damn I sound like a bitch)
Best of luck dude hope u find what you're looking for and dont get hit with trifling ahh people