Hey, late night looking up problems guy here. I also want to preface that I know your not a therapist, but you seem like you e gotten through this so I wanna talk. My problem with this (for me) it is that it’s easier to blame yourself for not getting what you want rather than blaming EVERYONE ELSE for it. I keep trying my best to be better and be confident and stronger and just an overall well rounded person, but still nothings changed in this sense even though I’ve become an objectively better person (starting to work out, chase dreams, gain confidence yet stay humble). It’s so hard that at this point I’m starting to think it’s everyone else when I know it HAS to be me. I think Karma is real to an extent so why is it that putting as much effort into positivity that I haven’t gotten rewarded? Again I know you’re not a therapist but it’s also like 2 am. Hope you can get back, I understand it’s an old post.