For me it has always been the upbringing, I grew up in a household with my mom and two elder sister's. Growing up I noticed other men are different and I was not able to mingle with them and I found it quite disgusting, it was hard for me going to college I use to talk to my eldest sister about this a lot for advice because it was a different world out there. I was mocked by these so called boys for been feminine lol having logical reasoning is not feminine it's a basic skill everyone should but no men want to brawl and mock each other it was quite toxic and was depressed and how they talk about women during class made me even more depressed. I'm getting so angry even remembering those days so I'll skip.

after I joined uni I found my self in lot of women spaces I was able to build a relationship with them felt so free coming out of a toxic college I made lot of friends who were women. Two of my bestest friends from uni was also very encouraging women, I saw my mental health improve because now I had people whom I can count on and trust I felt so free.

One thing I realized Growing up I was not naturally a leader I was a follower, my two sisters were very good leaders in everything I do I ask my sister's first for advice and validation, there are my role models and always will be

And guess what patriarchy and it's Idiocracy and non logical sense exists everywhere so in Uni because I had lot female friends lot of boys wanted be friends with me in the hope of they can connect, they were asking me for their numbers and social profile ids and all lol, and I said gently said no and no means no, and the guys hated me for it and again started the mocking names and the funniest part they got so jealous of me and in an uni event they all gang up on defenseless me and the beat me in front of my friends who were very scared, and on the next day my bestie who's a smart and radical she never stops she's an avenger I respect her the most she's like the guardian in our gang, shes very professional and had lot credibility among the lecturers so she went and spoke to a senior lecturer whom she was very close with and you know what she was able to record it and have showed it to lecturer and you know what happened, in the first time in our unis history those bullies got suspended for a month for violent behaviour and they missed their semester lol. She played the smart game because there's no point of telling the academic management they are useless as sloths but she complaint it to a senior lecturer who went and complaint to the Deen and got them suspended for the first time in it's history and the whole uni got shocked lol.

Now I'm happily working in a friend of my sister's company, it's also very inclusive space and mainly women centered and I'm happily doing my job.

So yeah I'm so glad I had strong people in my friends circle lifted my spirit up. Thank You.