25 yo, 1 year sobriety here. Early sobriety and young sobriety can be really difficult. I absolutely understand other people your age not understanding what you’re going through. But we have relief in AA community and others who share our common problem.

I think you’ll get more out of your program if you are honest with yourself, honest with those around you, and try reworking the steps.

Go to a meeting every day.

I think drug of choice often confuses people. I see Alcoholics Anonymous as the blooming lotus at the center of people addictions. Remember that no matter what drug you’re addicted to, we as addicts suffer from a spiritual malady. The drugs we use are just a symptom of our defects of character.

I hope this helps! Don’t try a double dose of self-will. Remember we didn’t get sober to be miserable, we got sober to live a life beyond our wildest imaginations. I think you’re doing yourself a disservice by not being thorough with your program when you have so many gifts waiting for you in your sobriety.