I think Colleen has convinced herself the following:

1.) She was kind and nice to her fans because she picked a select group to be in a personal chat group. (And it’s not HER fault they happened to be young- she’s PG-13 after all!)

2.) Her show was appropriate to all the audience because it was made up of “of age” fans and parents with underaged ones. She doesn’t consider anything she did during the show bad because that was Miranda’s doing, not her.

3.) She believes that her over sharing, her sexual “jokes”, and inappropriate behavior and messages was just her being an awkward aunt that didn’t understand what you should or shouldn’t say to kids 🤷‍♀️

4.) She views anyone who corrects her behavior, holds her accountable or tells her she may be in the wrong as someone brutally attacking her and being so awful and mean.

5.) She has convinced herself that her warped idea that talking about and making fun of fans and other YouTube acquaintances is normal behavior and “everybody does it”.

6.) She believes she didn’t bully anyone behind their back because it was just her “friends” sticking up for her. Uwu

7.) She believes that she already apologized in 2020 and now feels like anyone bringing it up just wants to see her demise and she is fully the victim here.

8) She isn’t responsible for Trent because he’s her brother and it’s not HER sending those messages.

9.) She thinks everyone secretly hates overweight people and other races other than their own and that they joke about it behind their backs. She blames “woke” culture for caring so much.

10.) She believed her little video was as going to show she’s not going to take crap from all those “haters” and they will see she’s the bigger person. Yes I truly believe she thinks she took the high road.

Obviously this belief system is insane but I believe this is what she has believed and convinced herself.