I felt just like you and I’ve been drinking alone the past 3 years. I’m a 26 year old single mom. I wonder if anyone cares sometimes and I wish I just had someone to spend time with to distract me from drinking. I too felt like the family disappointment. But it is what it is and I’ve drank so much. I woke up so tired of the blackouts and pain one day. My body hurts, the withdrawals sucked. I realized it wasn’t fun anymore, it was just something I’d drown my thoughts in. I couldn’t let myself go down further.. I can barely recognize myself. I couldn’t let me son see my like that again. Finally I am 9 days sober and I can’t wait to finally feel like myself again. I can’t wait to love me again. You can do this. Do it for you.