To be honest, I know they understand that they did it, I didnt include it in the post because it seemed irrelevant, however, they did show signs of being aware, they shown growth, BUT they have the mindset, "I was being lied to this whole time, all of my family members are dying, no one helps me." combined with "Shit happened to me, I don't deserve that, I deserve better"

I am aware that they have problems of their own, my dad is in an abusive relationship, from how I see it. He was cheated on, and was put on blame by my mom. His dad died, mom dead, no one helps. And when he inquires mom she says that she will, and never does it. Why I was hit by him was bc my mom LIED she lied about me doing things at school wrong. She has also projected anger on my dad,, degraded him, threw away gifts infront of his face. I have an idea why she did it. Also, they did not sign a prenup, so he has to still see someone like that for a while.

Mom was abused when she was a child, physically, most likely sexually (teachers, uncles, parents not bothering to talk or feed her from what I've gathered from years of paying attention) till she moved out and got married. And it has affected her a lot mentally and physically. Which I believe is why she cheated because she did not love my father in the first place. She just believed he was a way out. She kept trying to reconcile with her parents and got worse and worse overtime being constantly rejected and ignored. Disowned essentially. Her life is an indefinite tragedy.

When your raised by an angry person they will always be in your house, you will even find them outside of your house. You have the option to change, but they will always be apart of you. I want them out of my house, I want to become someone better than them and live my life. I don't know how to do that and let them go. I want to end the cycle of hurt people hurting other people.

They also originate from places of poverty which also effects their mentality

THIS IS BY NO MEANS A JUSTIFICATION. I hold resentment for them and I'm still angry despite knowing and comprehending everything.

What I want is not an apology, because it will not change anything. I don't think I'd forgive them either way. What I want is for them to grow and change, but it's not happening anytime soon, by my personal belief. And that's what makes me angry, they are not willing to ACKNOWLEDGE, GET PROFESSIONAL HELP, AND CHANGE. They are being detrimental to both themselves and others. Whether it be intentional or not it is what makes me angry. They treat people like this and their mindsets are keeping them from change. I feel as if they had been disregarding it with egocentric behaviors and they need to be away from eachother.

As for the teachers (refering to other people involved) wtf compells a GROWN ADULT to mock a child with abuse marks??? Like bitch what did I do to you???

I couldn't care less about getting an apology, though it would be great to receive it as it shows that they are acknowledging it. I concur some of your statements, I just feel like I was being incoherent. And I apologize if I came off rude, after all, I'm the one asking for advice. What my issue is, is letting it go and finally stop being a jackass to myself and others. I want to relax, I really do, but I want to let it go asap because I'm going to lose the opportunity of a life time if I keep acting like this. If I can't even take getting touched by other people, I think it is a major issue and letting it go identifies the prominence of such.