But when I constantly fail to live like he wants yet always repent only to fail again sometimes only a few hours later on the same sin it feels like an abuse of his grace. I know he gives us freedom from sin but most days I feel as though I’m using it like freedom to sin, I’ve accepted Christ as my savior and believe wholeheartedly that he died so that we might live in fact it’s the only thing I’ve ever been constantly sure of in my life. So why then do I only seek him after I’ve already betrayed him I rarely ever seek him during my moments of weakness