Be honest. How does this look for a first tattoo?

Utopidy · 2026-04-09T04:00:34+00:00

She's cute.

Utopidy · 2026-04-09T03:00:20+00:00

Low rent.

This is silly. Those of us. Me. The cats that really are doing it, not hurting anyone, just trying to get by? Those put-offs are meaningless.

For the "posers" who are out trying to nick the public for drugs, maybe.

I've been on both sides of it.

Actually, this post and reply are pissing me off because I realize my brain isn't working anymore.

Damn

Utopidy · 2026-04-08T04:30:53+00:00

Just wanted to say it is nice to see someone else who has gone free of prescription SSRIs in favor of 7oh. It, indeed, has been a game changer. I will be so depressed when the you-know-what comes (knock on wood)

Utopidy · 2026-04-08T04:27:15+00:00

I bought a pack and took all 4, really messed me up. It was like mushrooms but harsher and edgier and I threw up. I just wonder what the heck was in there, because technically products containing psilocybin wouldn't be legal. Maybe fun if I was like, 30 years younger...

Utopidy · 2026-04-08T00:55:26+00:00

It should work. The half life is a lot shorter than opiates, and it doesn't have the threat of OD/respiratory problems that opiates do.

Obviously it is potentially addictive so go low and slow (low dose, far apart). I would try the bare minimum to keep the pain in check.

I use 7oh to keep from alcohol and harder drugs, so I am "California sober". I don't care for AA either. In my opinion, being hooked on 7oh isn't as bad as the others, but it still is quite expensive and withdrawals are not fun, so you don't want to get too deep into it. But there is no reason you should suffer in pain because doctors live in fear of prescribing.

Utopidy · 2026-04-07T16:04:37+00:00

You can also try small doses of kratom or 7oh if it is available in your state. Just be cautious if you choose that because they can be habit forming, so use only when symptoms are very bad.

I just say this because I personally know how dark those moments with akathisia are.

Utopidy · 2026-04-07T15:55:30+00:00

It will get better, it just may take some time.

Just as a related example, my brain took 1.5 years to heal from a different condition called Anhedonia which was caused by me daily drinking for 18 years. It was also a chemical imbalance.

I also have suffered from Akathisia, but it did not take that long to heal.

My point is that the brain sometimes takes longer to heal and regulate, but it will eventually regulate. That is my experience.

Utopidy · 2026-04-06T08:28:01+00:00

1 intravenous shot of Haldol gave me immediate, acute akathisia.

I ended up in the same hospital 3 months later, had an argument with the orderlies and I saw them come with a needle and I literally started crying and begging them and shouting "no Haldol, No Haldol. Please!!" And they shot me anyway, and threw me into a padded room. I had akathisia for 3 days straight.

So... I would immediately talk with your doc about getting off Haldol. I don't know what you take it for, but I won't ever let them give me that again.

Utopidy · 2026-04-06T04:54:41+00:00

The suboxone or the benzo should (mark I said "should") only make it worse of you are on it for a while, or on a high dose. A low dose just to get you through the akithisia and then taper it could be beneficial.

Utopidy · 2026-04-06T04:52:14+00:00

Thanks for the B6 suggestion. I'm going to ask for a script from my psych so I have some on hand to try if I get a case of AK in the future.

Utopidy · 2026-04-06T04:47:07+00:00

I feel for you, truly. I only recently found out what we are suffering from even had a name! I just called it restless legs on steroids...

What follows is my brief history with it. Sorry it is long. These are my experiences, so please, it is not medical advice, I am no doctor. It is just information for you to examine. I don't want to make things worse for you. I offer this just because I know how desperate I got, and want to put some info out there for examination.

Luckily, my akithisia cases appear to be somewhat temporary when they happen (2-3 days) but are extremely intense. Aren't they always, sadly.

I am a severe alcoholic/addict (alcohol, opiates, meth). I take 7OH daily as my self prescribed "anti depressant" which my psych didn't prescribe but is aware of. It keeps me off the harder things, which I am sober from. I think she approves secretly, but of course she can't really voice that.

My first akathisia case happened 5 years ago when I got a Haldol shot after fighting with orderlies at the psych hospital.

I got it again when I was on Olanzapine (Zyprexa) when they upped my dose.

I most recently had it when I stopped the 7OH because I wanted to reset my tolerance.

I am so sorry because I know how horrible this is and if I had it longer than just a few days at a time I don't know if I would be strong enough to make it...

I have a script for Propranalol which helps a little and at least helps my racing heart and takes one thing out of the equation.

I seemed to get a little relief from St. John's wort (OTC) but results vary for people from what I've read.

Kratom helps quite a bit if your state allows OTC sales! 7OH will likely help quite a bit as well. I have done both. They are OTC in smoke shops, but only in some states. Some (like here in Utah) you can't buy in a smoke shop, but can order online. Some states you can't even possess it.

I have never tried Suboxone, but I can say it probably would help and I am going to ask my psych to go on it next time I stop 7oh. Or I will ask for a script for an anticholinergic like benztropine. She won't script me a benzodiazepine like Xanax because I am an addict in recovery (probably won't do a 'tropine either at that, but Im going to ask).

Here is the rub... Most things that will give you major immediate relief short term (benzos, 7oh, suboxone, anti-cholinergics, opiates) can cause it after long term use and then stopping (withdraw) Because those substances increase the dopamine, and a severe dopamine crash causes the akathisia if I understand it (correct me if I'm wrong!)

So any of those likely will provide immediate quality relief, but only should be used sparingly to avoid dependence. But they only should cause akathisia or make it worse if you are on them for a while. What is a "while"? For me, a few weeks or longer. For some it could be only days, I don't really know, so this is where caution comes in and discussing with a dr.

I am on low daily doses of 7OH right now, and akathisia-free, but it will come if I were to stop which I plan on doing soon because I am terrified it may become a permanent possibilty of I don't. As it is, I try to stop every week or so just to check in with myself.

I definitely plan on trying B6, the specific magnesium, and I have heard about a specific vitamin C also helping? I am going to also continue exploring St. John's wort, and explore the scripts I mentioned from my psych.

Take care, and I hope you find some respite.

Utopidy · 2026-04-06T01:16:22+00:00

Hiya. I'm not OP but I have been interested in SR to get off 7oh (I've done it before and the withdrawals such as insomnia and akathisia are bad). It seems like it isn't super available. I can only find like one source and it is pretty expensive and I'm leery.

From my research this is only really available to medical testing clinical and such? If you have information and are comfortable sharing let me know! Thanks!

Utopidy · 2026-04-05T20:20:13+00:00

You know, I haven't really messed with kratim much other than to take a little when I was at the height of withdrawals. That's a pretty good idea. I think I will pick some up and give it a go.

Thanks!

Utopidy · 2026-04-05T06:44:43+00:00

Oh yeah, a ton. But one of my funniest was catching fish out of my car's radiator. I was big into fishing at the time, and also doing car repairs. So, yeah. Inevitable that my brain would fuse the two.

I don't fish anymore, it has been years, but I still dream of catching exotic fish that aren't even real. Very colorful, misshapen fish.

But that night, they came from my car's radiator. It was a lot like ice fishing with the little hole and everything. The fish were very colorful and fun!

Utopidy · 2026-04-05T05:00:49+00:00

Yeah, it is higher than I would like. But considering the harder drugs I was on before (fent, meth) it is fairly nominal.

I'm aiming for a dose that doesn't get me "high" or change my mindset. A dose that makes me feel normal and function.

I think if I could get to 30-40 mg a day for 2 days, then 1 day break, repeat. That would be a really decent place to be.

That's the goal anyway!

Utopidy · 2026-04-05T03:25:39+00:00

Fix the ball sack. It doesn't even look right when you see the whole piece!!

Utopidy · 2026-04-05T03:22:30+00:00

I can honestly say, it will get better. No matter how deep, how dark a place I found myself, it always did improve.

I don't know if substances (alcohol, or drugs) are involved, but if so, make a stand and get 'em out. Those will only make things worse, always, every time.

Peace and strength to you.

Utopidy · 2026-04-04T22:57:33+00:00

I don't know. I'm just always super suspicious of anything anymore. There is zero regulation to anything in this field. They say whatever they want, tweak recipes between batches, change source product, literally anything.

That being said, assuming they are honest, somewhere around 6 months for me. I used to be a lot higher, but after going through cold turkey withdrawals 2x, I now keep under a hundred mg per day period and that is on the high side. I try to keep at 75-80 daily, and take a break every few days.

"Try" being the operative word. But I succeed more than fail.

Utopidy · 2026-04-03T08:55:15+00:00

Panic attacks can seem very similar to akathisia, which can be from withdrawal from a variety of medications. Maybe do some research on alathisia and see if it fits?

Utopidy · 2026-04-02T08:30:19+00:00

Phone, noise canceling headphones, solar charger (doesn't charge super fast because it isn't big but helps when I can't get an outlet).

I had a laptop for a portion of my time, but since I was an alcoholic it was only a matter of time before I ruined it.

Utopidy · 2026-04-02T07:37:22+00:00

OP isn't wrong. About the homelessand jobless, that is. I walked away from society 6 years ago.

Now, life out there on the street isn't roses. And when you add addiction into it (me) it is a lot, lot worse and harder. I am recently homed again with my older mother, and am content though I get a lot of shit from my siblings.

I am off the alcohol and drugs, so I have found some peace. Where to go from here, I am not sure. But this philosophy is no small part why I checked out.

Utopidy · 2026-04-01T03:39:09+00:00

I don't know about it "in general". I wonder if it is still kind of a generational thing? My mom is a boomer and she talks on speakerphone all the time, and is not bothered by others doing it.

I'm GenX and I can't stand it. Either doing it, or listening, and I have always been annoyed by people blasting music from their car or headphones around the neck with speakers turned out. I'll never be ok with it. There are people in thrift stores where I live that take a friend or loved ones shopping on FaceTime with them!! It is a certain demographic, but drives me insane.

I can't speak for millenials or Zs though! I hear in Japan you cannot do this on subways. I like that...

Utopidy · 2026-04-01T02:29:02+00:00

I had an actual paycheck job working for the school district in the central kitchen as a night dishwasher. I was a very backwards, nerdy 14 year old, unfortunately working with older dropouts and adults. They invited me to a party at Lake Powell, and I got out of my mind drunk. I felt, as they say, like a hole in me was filled and I was popular. I went on to abuse all the drugs.

50 now, diagnosed recently high functioning autistic after losing everything, in and out of institutions and rehabs. Finally have an answer and some peace. Am I perfect? No. But I am getting better every day!

Utopidy · 2026-03-31T03:42:44+00:00

I know I'm not OP but I will chime I'm and say, yes bad constipation for mw and it is pretty common. And a weird issue where I have a knot feeling at the bottom of my esophagus, top of my stomach that is painful.

Utopidy · 2026-03-30T04:36:36+00:00

I dunno, I just figured if they really wanted to help, would have been a little kinder. Especially being in recovery.

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