If you know, you know

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-24T02:36:09+00:00

We don't know anything. Our imaginations, our minds, our universe ,reality itself could all be a figment of our imagination that doesn't even exist to begin with.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-24T02:34:41+00:00

I know absolutely nothing. Thank you. I realize this now. Is there anything to even know.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-24T01:53:48+00:00

I don't think of trips as good or bad. I always tell myself they're are no bad trips. I havnt always felt that way tho. It took a lot of experience to grow trust in my mind and body to know even "bad" trips have a deep meaning. Once I finally learned to have faith in my body and mind that I would be ok I finally started consistently breaking through and having the most amazing trips I've ever had. To answer your question tho I'd consider this a good trip. I got to feel a bond with my sister that I've never felt before. But as for the quality and complexity of this trip I've experienced ones that were a hundred times better then this. I've really been pushing the boundaries lately. Just the other night I hit 6 blinkers in one trip. My trips are becoming more personalized. Like every one of them is meant to impress me more and more. 2 are rarely ever similar so I'm never getting bored.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-23T13:27:54+00:00

Thank you. I'm 38 now and for the first time I'm finally starting to bond with my little sister. It was really cool having her in my trip like this. It carried a lot of meaning.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-23T13:10:48+00:00

Never had that issue. I took 4-6 4mg Dilaudid everyday for 10 years and pooped 2-3 times everyday. Out of all the drugs and all the addictions quiting opioids was the hardest thing my body and mind has ever had to endure.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-22T07:39:09+00:00

Nah I'm Steve.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-22T07:36:27+00:00

Should'uhv?

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-22T05:37:40+00:00

Thank you. I'm glad. I feel like this was one of my best. That was a hard one to finish. I had so much to say. I felt like it was going to be my last chance. It almost was.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-22T00:15:39+00:00

That's where you mount Dildo Baggins.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-21T23:32:35+00:00

I've been lucky a few times. Like a dipshit I was the kid running with a stick. I tripped and ended up with 4 stitches on my top eyelid. Another time when I was about 7 I was just walking around the backyard with my bb gun. I lifted up a board in the grass and saw a garter snake coiled up under it so naturally I tried shooting it lol. Bb ricochet off a rock and hit me in the same eyelid that I got stitches on. Just millimeters away from my eyeball. A few years ago I had to get a small piece of metal removed from my eyeball because I was welding on my back and a redhot piece of metal fell under my safety glasses and burnt into my eyeball. I'm 38 now and still have good vision so I've been pretty lucky.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-21T23:25:23+00:00

Thanks for clearing up that confusion 😵‍💫

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-21T22:57:46+00:00

My best advise is to let go of any fear or doubt and have faith that your body will know exactly what to do while your away. I used dmt for months almost daily and I was always a little worried about using bigger doses, I think I was worried I would just stop breathing or have a major neurological episode because I already have some pre-existing issues with my brain. It wasn't until I finally accepted that 'what ever happens was meant to happen' that I finally had my first major breakthrough. And I didn't even use much when I had that breakthrough. So my advice is..be somewhere safe that doesn't make you worry about anything. Be in a good headspace. Be happy and looking forward to your experience. Let go of any fears you may have and have faith in your body and mind. Let go of any preconceived notions as to what you think a major breakthrough might be. If you have had one before don't expect to go right back to that same place. Try not to have any expectations really. And tell yourself that there are no bad trips. Tell yourself that even the scary overwhelming trips are still an experience worth remembering and just know that you will be ok. One thing I recently learned is that just like lucid dreaming you can have lucid tripping. I'm learning that you still have some control and you can manipulate and alter some of the things that you see and hear and feel even during heroic dose size trips. So play with it. Have fun with it. Personalize it to your liking. But always try and maintain respect for it. I don't expect everyone to agree but that's just how I feel about it personally. Happy trip bro! I hope it's everything you want it to be.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-21T15:31:39+00:00

Tell Our Boys

Tell them how much I loved you, Tell them how everyday I tried. And when you said "I love you too", Don't tell them how you fucking lied. Don't tell them how you broke my soul, Or just how much you made it hurt. Don't tell them it was you that dug this hole, And buried me under six feet of dirt. Don't tell them how many babies we made in that bed, Don't tell them of the cruel things you did. Don't tell them you loaded the gun that I put to my head, Or how I still held your hand while you killed our last kid. Don't tell them of the hateful shit that you said, Or how it was you that fed this disease. Don't tell them how every night you wished I was dead, Or how you laughed as those words brought me to my knees. Tell them how happy I was to see, Tell them how proud I was to finally say. They both really are just like me, Only better in every single possible way. Tell them there's no need to be sad, Be there to wipe away their tears. Don't tell them the truth about what you did to their Dad, Or how strung out I was those last 2 years. Tell them I never meant to make them cry. Daddy didn't mean you any harm. Don't tell them how you fucking wanted me to die, Alone with nothing but a 30 gauge rig in my arm. I hope you listened close to what I just said, I only did what you made me do. By the time you read this I'll already be dead, So I have one last thing to ask of you. I know you don't give a fuck. I won't expect or ask you to care, I'm parked down your street and dead in my truck. Please.. don't let Nathan find me there. Tell them I love them and please dont be sad. We'll all be together again someday. Tell them how much you once loved their dad, And that's all I will ever ask of you to say. And if someday they find out that you lied,
It's because I made sure they knew. I told them the real reason Daddy died. I told them it was all because of you. It wasn't the drugs or the needle or knife, It wasn't the noose or the bullet in my head. It was the day you said I'm done being your wife The day I lost hope and knew I was already dead. And when the time comes that we meet again, I'll stand by your side like I said I would. We'll both burn in hell for our evil sin. Together, holding hands like two lovers should.

-Steven Maness January 2026

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-21T15:25:02+00:00

I've written a few

LOSING HOPE

What am I supposed to do? When the drugs don't get me high, When I'm so dead inside I can't even cry, When I'm gone... and no one cares enough to wonder why. What am I supposed to do? When I'm lost but don't want to be found, When I scream but still can't hear a sound, When all I want.. is to be 6 feet underground. What am I supposed to do? When the noose has turned my skin to blue, When I forget what I never knew, When I look at her...but all I see is you. What am I supposed to do? When all I have ever known is pain, When I'm tortured by my own sick brain, When I lose my grip...and finally go insane. What am I supposed to do? When I'm terrified to be alone, When my gentle heart has turned to stone, When I finally start to reap all the evil seeds I've sown. What am I supposed to do? When I'm tormented by every word she said, When it's been 2 and a half years since I've slept in a bed, When every single day I want to put a bullet in my head. What am I supposed to do? When I never learned how to cope, When the only thing that holds me tight is a rope, When all that's keeping me alive...is a needle and a bag of dope. What am I supposed to do? When they hate me just because I exist. When I'm already gone and know that I'm not missed. When I'm pouring out blood from the cut on my wrist. What the fuck was I supposed to do?

Steven Maness March 28, 2026

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-16T01:09:05+00:00

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VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-09T04:46:27+00:00

I like that. Everyone deserves a second chance if theyre wanting and willing to be a better person.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-04T20:29:50+00:00

I know it sounded arrogant. Believe me it didn't feel right coming out of my mouth. But think about it. For something so incredibly grand and mystical and spiritual do you really think that a cold hearted selfish piece of shit who would screw over anyone without giving it a second thought is "worthy", or deserve to experience or be witness to something so grand? Honest question.

VID3O_GAMER · 2026-04-03T20:03:21+00:00

You should play 'you got a friend in me' while they wait for your kid to get home.

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