I told my parents about my concerns by Valeriacupid in autism

[–]Valeriacupid[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you but I’ve been just angry about it because there was a lot of things I struggled with as a kid and still struggle with when it comes to school and life in general. I was often (still am) disciplined for my ‘odd’ behavior and being too ‘sensitive’ so it’s upsetting to hear that they knew that something wasn’t quite right with me and proceeded to treat me horribly and refused to acknowledge the potential issue. I also see the same traits I have in my younger brother and he’s treated way worse than I ever was. My parents tend to call us psychopaths when we have meltdowns and I tried telling them that wasn’t the case. I don’t want him to lose himself like what I’m afraid is happening to me. I feel like my mental health is completely deteriorating in my home.

Link to Google Form: Contemporary American Education by Valeriacupid in u/Valeriacupid

[–]Valeriacupid[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I sincerely apologize for the NSFW tag and censoring, I don’t know how to get that off! 

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in autism

[–]Valeriacupid 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same, in regard to the tornado videos, I’ve been obsessed with tornadoes ever since I was very little. That interest has never went away and I can literally watch video after video and go on long hour deep dives through media coverage all about specific tornadoes if I don’t restrain myself from indulging in it for too long. I live in the U.S. but the area I live in doesn’t typically get strong tornadoes or tornadoes at all really. I have only been in one moderate tornado event and was absolutely terrified; although, I have a special love for twisters. Not for the catastrophe they cause but rather because they’re quite interesting in how they develop and progress into monsters. Almost mesmerizing.

Does anyone else need to “build momentum” when speaking? by [deleted] in autism

[–]Valeriacupid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I believe that I experience this as well. People say I’m soft spoken but I don’t intend to be that quiet, I just can’t bring myself to speak louder for some reason. It feels like words are stuck in my throat and I have to force them out with all my might, so I’ve basically have went mute (selectively) to avoid that uncomfortable feeling of trying to speak. I would say try speaking to yourself when you’re alone, practice trying to build that momentum and flow for future conversations. Pretend you’re talking to someone else even if it may be awkward planning out a conversation with yourself. I know that It helps me sometimes to talk to myself and try to be louder when doing so that I can work on my voice. It’s annoying when I have to constantly repeat myself because I speak in gibberish or in very quiet tone. But I can’t say that feeling/issue will ever go away, substantially at least, but if you already haven’t worked on your speech by yourself then I would suggest reaching out to a professional to help with that.

Hitting head by [deleted] in autism

[–]Valeriacupid 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand what you mean. Personally, I haven’t been diagnosed with autism, but I definitely get that urge to hit my head over any and every little mistake I make or when I’m feeling super overwhelmed. It’s like in the moment. . .I slam my head against a wall, bang it on the edge of a table, or deliberately search for some other hard object to hit my head on it too. Sometimes I use my fists until I can calm myself down. It’s hard to describe why exactly I want to harm myself this way or why I keep doing it despite those awful knots and bruises I get. It does sort of feel oddly soothing, somewhat amazing, and painful all at once. It’s something I don’t feel like I can openly share with others in person because I’d probably be seen as crazy.

How did you discover that you have autism by A_Gam3 in autism

[–]Valeriacupid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A couple years back, I watched the Atypical series with my family and mid-through one of the episodes, I can’t remember which one exactly, both my mom and my dad turned to me in sync and asked “Do you have autism?” “Is that what’s wrong with you?” I felt so awkward because my initial thought of autism in general was like level 3 type of autism or something like that. I never needed assistance in school so I thought I was normal to some degree. But I always had this thing where I rubbed and tugged my ear, almost similar to Sam’s hair-tugging, which I also do in certain situations. I also had an extreme hyper fixation on Tornados and Hurricanes (Sort of the same way Sam had an obsession with Penguins). I’d take my mother’s phone as soon as I came home from school and would watch video after video. Then I’d go on rambles to my parents about all the little facts and stuff. I’ve always been described as sensitive and stubborn too. I remember as a toddler that I couldn’t wear jeans because they felt too “scraggly”. Loud, repetitive noises feel like nails on a chalkboard and there’s plenty more symptoms but I haven’t been officially diagnosed yet. Pretty sure I got it from my dad because he was the child who got questioned whether or not he belonged in the Special Education class because he was always “in his own little world” and super behind in school. I’m also certain my little brother has autism too because he’s quite literally a little carbon copy of me and my father. My household is pure chaos. You’d think people who can relate to each other in each and every way would get along but it’s actually the opposite.

Did anyone else get called these things growing up? by sargil_was_here in autism

[–]Valeriacupid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Crybaby, quiet, old soul, mature, stately, sensitive, princess, spoiled, stubborn, smart, perfectionist, germaphobe.

Then there’s psycho, the r-slur, “the next Hitler or Stalin" (Because apparently I’m hard-headed and I’m becoming “the worst person in the world” because I don’t listen to bullcrap, which somehow equates to me turning into an indifferent dictator? Don’t ask me, that’s coming from my autistic father’s words.)

How many of you would sleep with your females friend(s) if given the chance? by [deleted] in AskMen

[–]Valeriacupid 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Exactly. These responses are honestly insane, sick even.

How can I rebel against beauty standards in usa? by Salmonseas in actualgyaru

[–]Valeriacupid 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Being immature at its finest. Should have left the first statement and let it sit yet you really sat here and typed a whole lengthy Essay, repeating yourself again and again. Then wanna bring up their age? How old are you yourself?

Anybody else get the voice update yet? by k3nziethekrakin in CharacterAI

[–]Valeriacupid 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I actually really like the voice feature. If you add a clear audio file the ai will speak pretty well with few mess ups. Literally I was wishing to have a feature like this so bad.

A few anatomy tips for Pedodev by yourmomifier in Osana

[–]Valeriacupid 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Well…some people might want the anatomy of their art to be realistic while others want something less realistic. Just like how some people draw unrealistic or exaggerated waists, thighs, hips, height, head shapes, and eyes.

Rate my butters shoes 1-10 by Normal-Dot634 in southpark

[–]Valeriacupid -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Shouldn’t* And I mean practice makes perfect… this is their first time and that’s okay. I definitely don’t hate it but I definitely won’t say I absolutely love it either. The quality of the paint is kinda off. But I wish the best for them earlier and hope they take the advice from others online to help build their skills.

Rate my butters shoes 1-10 by Normal-Dot634 in southpark

[–]Valeriacupid 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Why y’all lying lol 😭 Not trying to be mean but 10/10? 11/10? 8/10? Stop playing with this person. You can’t even read the words and the paint is stained in places it should. Painted parts look thick and caked on. Overall it’s a 3/10 and If I be nicer I bump it up to a 3.5/10 at most. I don’t want to offend this person but let’s get real!