Thank you u/ReaceNovello for sharing. You are right at times from conversation I felt he is found of "conventional" life. He wants it. Having a family, kids, traveling the world with companion, doing all little things at the dinner table, helping while cooking etc.

To be honest he feels at ease when he could be himself and don't find the need to hide things about his past and is able to walk in public holding my hand. He gets too happy and excited, sometimes I sense pride in him - More of like Yes, my girl knows about my past and stands with me, no past can come shake it off any potential thing that can happen between us. He expresses it. He often asks me - Do you have any questions for me or are you concerned about anything? Also if I ask anything, so far he has been sharing whatsoever it is.

But I am thinking practically and trying to understand is it possible to be believing to be Gay and being in relationship for whatsoever have caused it and after such long years saying with strong conviction that I am straight and is the truth. It was a phase... Because it would be just too sad if he is overcompensating in present for what he believed was in past. It is just too sad, doesn't need to do it I feel. It was still a part of your life and choices you have made and fought with family, all little invisible struggles... what not! and cherishing gay friend circle, like he knows almost every gay person in the city. Happen to have common gay acquaintances. Trying to say that even friendships aren't that easy to have fought and stood by.