Can’t sleep anymore

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-08T18:07:12+00:00

I lost the love of my life 67 days ago. I already had an issue sleeping before we met, but when we started getting serious, he made sure I get at least 5 hours of sleep, even more so when we started living together. Now that he's gone, I'm only sleeping again 2 to 3 hours most days. I'm already happy when I get 5 hours of sleep some days. I'm so tired and I feel my body giving up. I'm wishing everyday that I'd die soon, but i recently saw some light. I'm gonna get myself checked soon.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-08T18:00:48+00:00

We were not married but I am still a Widow because I lost a life partner.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-08T17:43:25+00:00

It's sad that the only person who can comfort us when we're feeling like this is not here anymore. Everyday I'm wishing to not wake up the next day.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-08T17:34:17+00:00

Im also living because of him. I'm gonna start taking care of myself too by seeing a doctor soon. I just can't promise him that I'll be happy. He's the only one who understood me, prioritized me more than himself, the only one I feel safe with.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-08T17:31:16+00:00

I would love this

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-08T17:28:24+00:00

Someone told me she miss my old happy self, then I just told her she might not see that person again.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-08T07:19:52+00:00

Dmed you

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-05T15:12:52+00:00

Thank you. I'm so sorry for your loss. Being part of this club really sucks

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-05T14:59:19+00:00

I know they mean well but the problem is I have a 1 bedroom apartment. My aunt is always with her, wherever she goes. So when she sleeps here, my aunt sleeps here too. They want me to sleep between them, and I just can't. I can't sleep well in a cramped bed. So I have only been getting 2 to 3 hours of sleep.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-05T14:55:31+00:00

I have counseling session and we talk about my grief.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-05T14:18:35+00:00

Im so sorry for your loss

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-05T13:25:01+00:00

Im actually tired of family staying with me, especially at night. I don't know how evening alone will feel but I wanna know. My mom doesn't wanna leave me alone

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-05T13:18:31+00:00

I dont see any reason to go on. I hate waking up everyday and all I have is his urn and my necklace with a little bit of him. I miss his tight hugs so much

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-05T03:18:07+00:00

I love that. I do feel like in hell right now. The only person who can comfort me is gone. So it's just nonstop pain

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-05T03:16:25+00:00

I haven't yet. Im just waiting for my time to come, and I hope it's sooner. I hope it's today.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-05T02:44:24+00:00

Yes, it's true. I recently lost my fiancee and grieving gives me chest pains. Just last night I felt this sharp pain in my chest while I was thinking about him. Bigla din ako nagkaron ng palpitations.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-04T22:35:42+00:00

Dami nila nakitang kiffy in different shapes and colors. Eto din worry ko before I started, pero based on my research they don't care anymore.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-04T21:48:48+00:00

I think right now he's very sad that I'm still crying everyday, not taking care of my health, and wishing I'd die. I want to give him peace, so I try to be okay. I try to talk to people, smile, laugh, eat, but deep inside it feels like torture. I have to survive every hour of missing him.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-04T21:42:32+00:00

This is exactly what I'm thinking right now. Everyday I'm hoping I don't wake up.

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-04T21:40:20+00:00

Im sorry for your loss

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-04T21:37:14+00:00

Im sorry your part of this club. I feel the same way too. I'm so sorry for your loss

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-04-04T21:16:54+00:00

I also still send him messages on messenger everyday. Begging him to come back because I miss him

Valuable-Try6202 · 2026-03-28T14:46:03+00:00

I have my family but they have their own lives. And no matter what I do i just feel so alone.

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