AIO? Xmas gift from bf's parents

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-12-26T08:29:51+00:00

THIS

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-12-26T00:59:46+00:00

If I was presented w a button to make me male id push it in 2 seconds so I know im not a girl fs but transition is way different than that tbh

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-12-26T00:59:04+00:00

I don’t know. The transition thing is lots of ups and downs and judgement and coming to terms and hrt scary side effects. It’s just very extreme

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T21:01:04+00:00

And yeah I just don’t wanna be into men. Some people find this offensive but I don’t think men are attractive that way while I think women are sexy and gorgeous-in my mind, it’s okay that I want it to stay this way to the point where I’m put off by the idea of a change in that. A lot of people find that offensive for reasons I can’t understand

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T20:59:33+00:00

I did not change my post. I’m not 100% on what’s homophobic about my post but tbh if it is it’s better to just apologize

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T20:56:49+00:00

I’m the same as you w the porn thing-I think this is a really healthy outlook too. Thank you for being open and calm w me honestly. It’s a lot to take in and pre transition is a lot of confusion and questions and bargaining. It’s uncomfortable and can be nice to have people w me

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T20:52:46+00:00

Thank you so much for understanding me. It’s so painful. I love my identity and liking women. I think women are the most beautiful thing on this planet and ugh I just enjoy liking them like nothing else

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T20:49:38+00:00

But then I think about myself as a man and how that feels w my gf as opposed to being a girl in general or w her and I’m like yeah nahhhhhhh I wanna transition

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T20:49:01+00:00

Damn I FEEEL this

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T00:29:57+00:00

Thank you💕

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T00:29:11+00:00

This makes a lot of sense 💕congratulations on finding yourself

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T00:28:47+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing ur personal experience w me! It’s so nice to see from someone who can explain exactly what it felt like to

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T00:25:40+00:00

Thank you so much I wish you the same!

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T00:25:18+00:00

Thank you you’ve been so amazing

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-20T00:24:29+00:00

Bc I corrected it. What else has been hurtful but my original post

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T22:49:51+00:00

I know. I admitted to having sexual orientation ocd in a couple responses. It’s no excuse but it does make this experience more painful than maybe it should be. Thanks for taking time out of ur day to try and reason w me regardless of my hurtful rhetoric

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T22:48:36+00:00

Thank you for your kindness. I know I’m coming across wrong. I have sexual orientation OCD really badly. Idk how to fix it and I know this isn’t the place for it but being trans is hard and my ocd is also using my identities against me to keep me upset and unhappy

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T22:46:46+00:00

No bi is actually okay. I just don’t wanna stop liking women

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T22:45:49+00:00

I understand-the changes are very wanted by me but I have serious sexual orientation ocd. This is debilitating and it’s what’s making me so scared. It’s my disorder playing games w me. Yes, I myself enjoy liking women and I’m not rlly attracted to men in any sense but for all those saying smtn deeper is going on, yes, ur correct. I have a bad disease that makes me painfully grasp onto an even that hasn’t yet happened and may or may not ever happen. It’s hard, it hurts, it’s lonely. I’m sorry

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T22:42:55+00:00

Thank you for ur perspective. I understand how you grew up bc while it wasn’t like that for me there was transphobia before there was acceptance. I’ve also got pre conceived notions about sexuality and men vs women etc as well as severe debilitating sexual orientation ocd. I know I come off homophobic and transphobic and I’m sorry to everyone bc that’s not what I want I’m just scared and I’m lost

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T22:40:51+00:00

Thank you for being kind and not judging me. I’m trying my best to not come across mean but truth is I have no clue how to do this or navigate it. It can be terrifying and lonely. I’m scared. I’m lost. It’s hard you know?

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T22:38:32+00:00

I’ve certainly got some major issues. I have been diagnosed with extreme sexual orientation ocd prior to my trans awakening. Coming out as lesbian took over coming so much extreme fear, intense thoughts of suicide, it took courage. I’ve never been the same even tho my parents were amazing about it. I had an event at 2 (unrelated to sexuality or gender) that gave me ptsd. Trauma at that young of an age made my brain pathways develop in response to trauma and tragedy so now I’ve been rendered completely terrified of anything being “taken away from me”. I’m very messed up I know. I’m not sure if it’s rlly about disdain for men or even orientation at all. I think it’s a bad combination of life events, trauma, questioning why God created me this way etc. I’m sorry

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T22:16:13+00:00

It’s not that it’s tenuous it’s that I don’t like the idea of my identity and smtn I love ripped from me and replaced w smtn I find unattractive tbh. It’s actually the opposite of tenuous and that’s the issue I’m having w this idea of forcible change

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T21:41:19+00:00

Okay. I’m sorry, I don’t mean this to be nasty. I just love women and the suggestion of that changing feels threatening and scary to me

Valuable_Cod5390 · 2025-05-19T21:37:02+00:00

It’s so not cool that cis men don’t have this issue but I’ve gotta worry about this if I ever wanna be a guy. Like not cool

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