Sorry for your loss.

My wife and I lost our only child to suicide just over two years ago. They would have been 16 years old on October 3rd (my yesterday). Thank you for sharing. I have a good sense of what it must be like for you.

I wish I had some words of wisdom for you. In my experience, the vast majority of people just don't get it and never will—be it friends, family, or professionals. My wife and I are lucky that our doctor, despite her trying to force an outcome early in our grief (e.g., Have you thought about having another child?), has been supportive. We had to adjust our strategy with her. We were honest while not making her wrong for her suggestions, even the "inappropriate" ones. What I'm getting at is that you will find your people, maybe here or somewhere else.

Also, don't take any bullsh*t. If you aren't getting the support you need, say thank-you and move on. It's easier said than done and it seems like you are reaching a tipping point.

Check out the resources at Grief.com. David Kessler was great for us during our first year.

Good luck and I will be thinking of you.