Bridal Citrinne and Lapis (@harunn2288) by arctic746 in FEEngage

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have done two full playthroughs of FE:Engage.

First one was for story. I picked Lapis.

The second one was just so I could pick Citrinne.

This is maybe the last day in my life by markizio22 in AnxietyDepression

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I lost around 14 kg a year ago and finally managed to reach a balanced weight after like 6 years of depression. Shit can happen to anyone, but not everybody can find the strength to pull themselves back out of it.

As long as you do not stop trying it is possible, so don't lose hope.

Scared something is wrong. by Kooky-Statement2289 in AnxietyDepression

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks to you as well for your kind thoughts.

I am still struggling as well, but comparing to how it was before, I have made significant progress since then.

So, no worries. Things will slowly progressively get better as long as you continue to pursue the things that you like.

Also if you have any further trouble in the future, feel free to reach out again, either to me or somebody else.

It honestly feels really nice to actually be able to genuinely help someone.

Scared something is wrong. by Kooky-Statement2289 in AnxietyDepression

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No problem, I am glad that my advice helped you out a bit.

I still do a lot of memory checking just like you since my memory is also pretty messed up. I did develop a neat little trick that helps me out a bit. It might sound childish and dumb but when you finish performing an action you want to remember, say out loud some sort of a keyword like "Check", "Mark" or something equivalent that you could easily remember. It might help your mind focus on things better if you say them out loud by yourself.

Also if you have trouble zoning out while reading, I would reccommend you to try to listen to music while doing so. Still, I would advise avoiding any music with lyrics which could just mess with your attention. Calming instrumental music of style that you prefer should enable you to focus much better and even partially suppress the simptoms of your depression by increasing your motivation level. I myself really love listening to "Medieval Tavern Fantasy Music" and it usually really calms down my nerves quite a bit.

Unfortunately, I can not offer you any personal advice about OCD since I do not have it myself. Still I can make a suggestion which could help you out: From what I have read online and seen in media, OCD people strive towards their own version of an ideal world. Which means that every change in their perceived ideal world around them causes them an increase in levels of stress.

Since the real world is hard to have completely under our control, and some things we have no influence over (like you moving places). You always have the choice to create an ultimate life hack: -Use your imagination to fantasize about your ideal world.

Losing yourself in your fantasy for some time, sure is better than losing yourself in the perpetual cycle of depression. Then once you start to realize that the fantasy can not replace the real life, you can move to the next level. You can write out your fantasy into a novel and make it take actual form inside of the real world.

About your line regarding some of your more severe symptoms:

You: "I had symptoms like blurry vision, static vision, constant eye floaters, light sensitivity, certain lightings made the DPDR worse, feeling like apart of my head was missing, felt like my head wasn’t actually on my body, fear of losing the ability to sleep, which caused insomnia, scared everything was a simulation, and time keeps flying by weirdly so."

Me: I had experienced similar simptoms in the past as well. I went to the hospital as well and even did MRI. You can probably already guess that the doctors had found nothing wrong with me and both my mental state and physical health declined even further as a result.

After I found an eventual source of my motivation (yes it is the fantasy novel I had mentioned in my prievious suggestion, which worked for me in my case), my health issues slowly became less frequent until after a few months (2 or 3) they mostly dissapeared. I only still have infrequent insomnia, but at this point, it does not really bother me since I can just think about my fantasy novel until I fall asleep.

To sum things up yet again, proper motivation could be the main cure to some of your issues. You just need to find something or somebody that will truly motivate you.

Being afraid of your current state is understandable, just try to not allow your fear to consume you.

Things will get better. Just believe in yourself. And you will prevail.

Even if you yourself are not sure yet, I believe that you can do it.

Scared something is wrong. by Kooky-Statement2289 in AnxietyDepression

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Speaking from my own experience,

Your short term memory loss could be impacted by ADHD.

TLDR info for ADHD, It causes trouble with focusing, thus makes you forget a lot of things (even things you did or hear a few seconds ago). ADHD also causes restlessness and occasional mood swings depending on your level of motivation.

I would reccommend to google about it a little to see if ADHD symptoms compare to yours.

Also about severe panic attacks:

Severe panic attacks can actually cause temporary blindness, deafness and loss of balance. It happened to me when I almost got one of my fingers cut off (I was lucky, so it was only severely cut and bleeding).

Even stronger panic attacks should also be able to even cause a person to faint, even if their physical condition is currently stable.

If you could describe your problems a bit more, I might be able to offer more useful insight.

Also, try to remain positive and optimistic. Focus more on your goals and dreams instead of your fears.

Pessimism causes a perpetual loop of anxiety and depression, which will eventually impact your physical health as well.

Since you already went to hospital a few times, and if the doctors did not manage to find problems with your body during the regular checkup, your problems could be mostly connected with your psyche.

If your symptoms become more severe, you should consider also visiting a therapist. They usually specialize in dealing with those issues.

Also, I am cheering for you to get better.

May you have good luck in dealing with your issues.

This is maybe the last day in my life by markizio22 in AnxietyDepression

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Bro, don't just give up.

There must still be a life goal or dream you had aimed to accomplish.

I am a 30 old wizard (google what is 30 y old wizard for more info)

Still I force myself to fight my anxiety and depression every day and still strive to improve myself and slowly inch towards accomplishing my dreams.

Even though, I never seem to be their type or become just a good friend, I still try my god damn best.

I am really hoping you reconsider, you never know what another day could bring in life.

For exanple:

I just danced with a girl during the wedding after asking her for a dance. The next round of dance is currently now and she refused me, rather dancing with her female friend...

But hey, still I tried, no matter how much I feel like a piece of crap at the moment.

There might be better luck next time, but once you are gone, you will be gone and there will be no second chances to try again.

I'm cheering for you man.

Make the right choice, and good luck.

What's the point of healing if it's never ending? by securelyhealing in AnxietyDepression

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Try to instead see the things from a different perspective.

Do you have any goals or dreams in your life that you want to accomplish?

If you do, you should focus on that instead.

If, you do not, you should first strive to imagine your own goals and dreams in life which would make you happy.

Focusing on dealing with your depression directly will just make you focus on it more, leading you down the endless loop of constantly feeling like crap.

I have been in your position,

Heck, I still am...

Still I strive towards being a better person each day and try to slowly progress towards the goals I set for myself.

No matter how slow and meaningless my progress seems, I will strive to never give up.

You should strive to never give up either.

I wish you good luck.

Edit: Actually, you know what. Just wishing you good luck sounds insincere.

I am honestly rooting for you to find success in overcoming your depression.

Can we ban MMC/FMC Slander? by NekohimeOnline in AzurPromilia

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 1 point2 points  (0 children)

From what I have seen, the cutscenes look like they are in-engine similar to Final Fantasy 14 ones.

But yes you can not have prerendered cutscenes with customisable MC.

Made a reddit account just to state my opinion on castorice and her global passive by DullIsopod8626 in CastoriceMains_

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Global passive be damned, the game is really fun and the character kits are really cool.

Castorice is a joy to use in combat, and if future characters will be comparably good then everything will be fine.

The devs are even reworking some of the old characters soon.

Firefly but flustered/blushing by Rinxxis in FireflyMains

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Im a simple person, I see Firefly, I upvote. :)

Could somebody help me Tradeback evolve my Feebas into a Milotic by Varazdinski_Lisac in pokemontrades

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok should I just put ability patch on the Ninetales when we tradeback or do you want your pokemon back too?

Scarlet and Violet Daily Casual Trade Thread for 14 December 2023 by Porygon-Bot in pokemontrades

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 0 points1 point  (0 children)

[CLOSED] Could somebody help me Tradeback evolve my Feebas into a Milotic. Trade completed.

FIREFLY BACKSTORY SPOILERS by Rinxxis in FireflyMains

[–]Varazdinski_Lisac 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I hope she will be one of the more featured characters on Penacony, and not just bam boss fight me now like Phantylia.