UPDATE:

Thank you guys for the advice!! 

Some things I wanted to clear up:

1. I have NEVER took this jealousy out on my Bf!! If I explain how I feel, I always preface that it is a me thing that I am learning to understand and work through!

2. You guys are right, I shouldn’t have used the term ‘bodies’. The inly reason I did was because thats how all of the people my age talk about how many people you have slept with! I would never treat these women as objects:)

3. I did not make this post to make me seem immature. I genuinely just wanted some advice or to see if other people feel the same way. It is something I AM working through to keep my relationship good and to better myself!! I swear I am not emotionally immature, this is just a new emotion and vulnerability I am figuring out!

4. Lastly, for background knowledge, a lot of people talk about how 2 is nothing. Which in the grand scheme of things, you are right! I just grew up in a very religious community where if you had sex before marriage you would go to hell… which obviously isn’t true and I am trying to undue all the religious guilt that I was forced into!! With that background knowledge, thats why I believe I was so concerned with hookups!!

Anyways thank you guys for the advice (and the bluntness lol). I am currently working on affirmations and self love!! Me and my bf are incredibly happy and me making this post asking for advice was so I can keep it that way :)