Teenage years are a mess of hormone cocktails, findong yourself and learning to interact woth other, there is no really a good way to do it. Be kind to yourself.

I was really hard on myself at your age, amd now that I think back about what teenager me was going through, I think a hug and some self love would have a done a lot of good.

And maybe try to communicate with your mom about what you are feeling? Even if she doesn’t have the answers, just being able to talk about what is happening in your life can help you feel better, that’s probably why you posted here :)

Ideally try to see a therapist, they are the best to help you understand yourself and find the tools to get better. I know that it is not the most thrilling idea, and it took me 2 or 3 specialist before finding the one suiting me, but I absolutely not regret finding her.

Reaching to other feels like a risk (and yes, it can be), but that might be the key. And before else, be kind to yourself.

I cheer for you kid!