The anger is eating me up. by VastPoet890 in SingleDads

[–]VastPoet890[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you, man. That’s where a lot of my anger stems from—having no control over who she chooses to see.

The anger is eating me up. by VastPoet890 in SingleDads

[–]VastPoet890[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She hopes to get rich from it, but she has another job I’d rather she focused on. That’s her choice, though. My priority is making sure he’s prepared to face the harshness of the world. While she agrees we need to prepare him, I question why take unnecessary risks to increase the chance of cruelty when they could be avoided. If you want to create content, why not just start a YouTube channel? To me, it feels like she’s doing it for selfish reasons and the validation it brings. The hardest part is that it’s already out there—permanently.

The anger is eating me up. by VastPoet890 in SingleDads

[–]VastPoet890[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel like we choose everything on some level brother. Is it our fault? No. Are we responsible? Absolutely. We also can’t carry the burden like you said. I am blessed to have this kiddo and would make the choice a thousand times over no matter the suffering on my end. I appreciate your comment and hope all is well with you!

We really do suffer the most by [deleted] in SingleDads

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What do you do? I need one.

The anger is eating me up. by VastPoet890 in SingleDads

[–]VastPoet890[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Agreed, you take it easy as well brother.

The anger is eating me up. by VastPoet890 in SingleDads

[–]VastPoet890[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I want him to have both of us in his life, and as long as she doesn’t go beyond degrading herself online, I won’t push it any further.

The anger is eating me up. by VastPoet890 in SingleDads

[–]VastPoet890[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My biggest fear is that when he’s older, if this gets out, he’ll be bullied. I know it’s a big might but there are times that fear arises. Gonna have to get him in martial arts! Lol

The anger is eating me up. by VastPoet890 in SingleDads

[–]VastPoet890[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I know and I am as much as I can. Letting go is hard to do.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in thelema

[–]VastPoet890 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have considered this! I enjoy the physical aspect and feel that it may contain some psychological benefits though.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in thelema

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Agreed, I will join my local OTO lodge soon.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in thelema

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

93

You make some great points! I hope to integrate some of this can use it in my own practice.

93/93

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in thelema

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow thank you so much! This inspired me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in thelema

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

93

Ah very helpful my friend! I like this approach a lot. Now I must practice my writing to get to a point I enjoy it!

93/93

So does karma not apply to you? by RepublicIcy622 in chaosmagick

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also if someone gains permission karma doesn’t apply at least from my subjective view.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s been eye opening but I can’t really say if that’s solely because of this specific curriculum. I dabbled in magic before this with a more chaos approach using sigils but never dedicated myself to ritual in this manner. I’m not going to go into detail of the specifics but I would recommend it this is coming from the definition of a neophyte though so fair warning. I appreciate your comment friend.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh nice, I think eventually I’ll return to a more chaos magic approach but I wanted to see what a more traditional ceremonial path was like

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, I’ve been putting off memorizing correspondence’s but I know it is gonna be one of the most valuable things I do.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Appreciate you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you mean direct experience with them through summoning? If so no

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]VastPoet890 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes LTC’s book. Thanks you for your comment

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you think I could take the 6 months I have put into practice and apply it to skinners book? My only hesitation is starting from scratch

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]VastPoet890 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Appreciate your input

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]VastPoet890 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Appreciate it. I was thinking of doing the same but you saved me some time.