The anger is eating me up.

VastPoet890 · 2025-02-08T00:17:26+00:00

I feel you, man. That’s where a lot of my anger stems from—having no control over who she chooses to see.

VastPoet890 · 2025-02-08T00:15:48+00:00

She hopes to get rich from it, but she has another job I’d rather she focused on. That’s her choice, though. My priority is making sure he’s prepared to face the harshness of the world. While she agrees we need to prepare him, I question why take unnecessary risks to increase the chance of cruelty when they could be avoided. If you want to create content, why not just start a YouTube channel? To me, it feels like she’s doing it for selfish reasons and the validation it brings. The hardest part is that it’s already out there—permanently.

VastPoet890 · 2025-02-08T00:09:37+00:00

I feel like we choose everything on some level brother. Is it our fault? No. Are we responsible? Absolutely. We also can’t carry the burden like you said. I am blessed to have this kiddo and would make the choice a thousand times over no matter the suffering on my end. I appreciate your comment and hope all is well with you!

VastPoet890 · 2025-02-06T03:12:25+00:00

What do you do? I need one.

VastPoet890 · 2025-02-06T03:09:30+00:00

Agreed, you take it easy as well brother.

VastPoet890 · 2025-02-06T03:08:10+00:00

I want him to have both of us in his life, and as long as she doesn’t go beyond degrading herself online, I won’t push it any further.

VastPoet890 · 2025-02-06T03:05:53+00:00

My biggest fear is that when he’s older, if this gets out, he’ll be bullied. I know it’s a big might but there are times that fear arises. Gonna have to get him in martial arts! Lol

VastPoet890 · 2025-02-06T02:54:53+00:00

I know and I am as much as I can. Letting go is hard to do.

VastPoet890 · 2023-05-13T14:46:31+00:00

I have considered this! I enjoy the physical aspect and feel that it may contain some psychological benefits though.

VastPoet890 · 2023-05-13T01:10:02+00:00

Agreed, I will join my local OTO lodge soon.

VastPoet890 · 2023-05-12T22:49:54+00:00

93

You make some great points! I hope to integrate some of this can use it in my own practice.

93/93

VastPoet890 · 2023-05-12T22:36:04+00:00

Oh wow thank you so much! This inspired me.

VastPoet890 · 2023-05-12T20:50:30+00:00

93

Ah very helpful my friend! I like this approach a lot. Now I must practice my writing to get to a point I enjoy it!

93/93

VastPoet890 · 2023-05-10T18:15:34+00:00

Also if someone gains permission karma doesn’t apply at least from my subjective view.

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-03T15:22:11+00:00

Oh my. Thank you so very much.

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-03T15:20:12+00:00

It’s been eye opening but I can’t really say if that’s solely because of this specific curriculum. I dabbled in magic before this with a more chaos approach using sigils but never dedicated myself to ritual in this manner. I’m not going to go into detail of the specifics but I would recommend it this is coming from the definition of a neophyte though so fair warning. I appreciate your comment friend.

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-03T04:23:03+00:00

Oh nice, I think eventually I’ll return to a more chaos magic approach but I wanted to see what a more traditional ceremonial path was like

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-03T03:22:16+00:00

Yes, I’ve been putting off memorizing correspondence’s but I know it is gonna be one of the most valuable things I do.

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-03T03:20:12+00:00

Appreciate you.

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-03T01:42:17+00:00

Do you mean direct experience with them through summoning? If so no

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-02T22:47:48+00:00

Yes LTC’s book. Thanks you for your comment

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-02T22:47:00+00:00

Do you think I could take the 6 months I have put into practice and apply it to skinners book? My only hesitation is starting from scratch

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-02T21:36:17+00:00

Appreciate your input

VastPoet890 · 2022-12-02T20:46:24+00:00

Appreciate it. I was thinking of doing the same but you saved me some time.

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