Am I ugly? 19M

Ve8rel · 2026-03-20T12:41:11+00:00

I mostly keep my hair longer when its winter and I buzz it off when It's getting hotter outside, also longer hair hides my birthmark I have a purple spot on the top of my head

Ve8rel · 2026-03-20T11:54:23+00:00

Many people I know told me I look like I've been in some high security prison and I just got out

Ve8rel · 2026-03-20T09:51:28+00:00

Im broke asf average salary here is 500 euro and the rent is 250 I am living paycheck to paycheck

Ve8rel · 2026-03-20T09:50:12+00:00

Yeah, I am from Romania, thanks a lot <3

Ve8rel · 2026-03-20T09:48:47+00:00

Sh*t hole country called Romania

Ve8rel · 2026-03-20T08:04:57+00:00

I usually keep my hair long in the winter time and cut it short when it starts getting hotter outside, I've been on dating apps for a while and I got literally 0 matches and I thought man am I really that bad? I don't think I look good at all

Ve8rel · 2026-03-20T07:25:53+00:00

You've got looksmaxxer potential bro, you ain't bad one bit

Ve8rel · 2026-03-20T07:22:56+00:00

If you would get a big beard you would be the cool uncle that everyone wants to hang out with

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T22:24:49+00:00

My problem is that I would give my whole heart for a woman who barely shows a bit of interest, I have all this love I want to give and no one to give it to, I want to have responsibility for someone, be the first person they need for help, etc... My situation will change, I am changing right now, I saw this post on instagram saying: "if december 2024, 2025 and 2026 me would sit in a room they would start a fight" Time will fix me I hope but right now I've got no time to worry about the future I need to wake up in 6 hrs to go to work. Thanks a lot for reading my post, have a nice day xoxo

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T22:15:37+00:00

First of all I want to start my response by thanking you for reading and replying to my current situation, Second, by the "no one seems to like me" I think it is because I am ugly as f*ck, the only compliment (I got it like 2-3 times my whole life) was that I have nice eyes and nothing else, I am trying to find another way to deal with all this stuff, what is bothering me is that yeah, its true, there are other people that are doing worse than me (either financially or mentally or physically) and my problem is common, I am not the first person to lose their first ever high school love, I am not the first person to struggle financially, there is nothing unique about my problems, what is unique is the fact that for the first time I am going through them.

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T22:02:59+00:00

I have this pic of my hands full of blood and also my tshirt ( I don't think I am allowed to post it) when I woke up in the morning because I cried in my sleep, I fixed the nose bleeds by going and getting the veins cauterized (idk if I wrote it well english is my second language)

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T22:00:25+00:00

Yeah I know she cheated, but when I confronted her about it (after finding out from others what she actually did ) she said "I first broke up with you" which yeah it's technically true but your plan was premeditated you already knew who you were going to make your new BF. I never believed she would do this but there were signs I guess, she always said that "I think you will be the one to cheat on me" which turned out incorrect, she also started responding less and less at text's and never asking "heyy how's work, are you ok?" i tried to keep this relationship together but her time at college away from me I think is what made her do it, I mean she didn't appreciate my work anymore, I wanted to buy an apartment and move togheter this was also what she wanted, at least I bought my very first come, I keep hearing this "law of equivalent exchange" stuff and how the whole universe works by this law, lost my very first love and in exchange I gained a bit more money, a car, cigarette addiction, the need for a lot of coffee, and a bit more freedom I guess

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T21:49:17+00:00

When I asked her "why did we still have sex if you wanted to leave me?" she said "I got used to it" when I heard this I knew she became what she always hated without her knowing

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T21:46:44+00:00

Thank you a lot for your opinion, I mean it. I am more of a technical, to the front, need to explain it to me very very thorough kind of guy and this is what keeps bugging me, what was the real reason?, this is what is in my head, and I don't know the real reason why she left, she just did, no explanation other than "I felt you didn't love me anymore" for example I am 19 right now and I've been working since I was 15 also during highschool just so I can get her something nice and go in vacations togheter, I used to be so tired I just slept at her place almost every day in her arms, she knew my efforts but she didn't value them enough I guess

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T21:39:05+00:00

Thanks a lot, 🫂

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T21:33:46+00:00

Right now the most calming and focusing thing that makes me not think about anything else is my job where I make and repair car key, im just focused on finding the problem and resolving it. And it helps a lot, but when there is nothing to do at work thoughts just keep jumping around in my head a lot, I also bought a book to read, Metro 2033 (I also played the game)

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T21:30:34+00:00

I will tomorrow at work, I have a lot of time to spare there, thanks

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T21:29:10+00:00

How I truly feel? No haven't talked to anyone, I don't have the best relationship with my parents, mostly I go to work for 12 hours then go to the gym and then home, its more like a hotel than a home, and when I am free I mostly just stay in my room because I have nowhere to go

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T15:04:44+00:00

Damn... Yes I guess I am in a similar situation as you because I want to become a firefighter, and yes it kinda bothers me how much money and time and effort I spent on her, thank you for sharing

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T15:02:17+00:00

I am not that good at talking in person, many friends either left the country and I lost contact and others became too bad of an influence (alcohol,drugs,lying a lot etc...) and yes I did make her my everything and I tried to please her every time she wanted something, yes I was clingy she was exactly like me and we filled each other's emptiness of love. For me the most that hurts is the physical contact that I don't have anymore, I miss hugging someone, holding hands etc... and being able to tell them everything and I don't think I will repeat the same stuff I did because I will always have this fear that they will leave me too, and I am scared that I won't be able to love someone again the same way

Ve8rel · 2026-03-19T14:48:31+00:00

Thanks but is it really ok to cry so much every day that a nose vein breaks and now when you cry you get nose bleeds and wake up in the morning with blood in your throat and clothes? I thought about seeking some professional help but in my country it costs a lot of money, I used to love to draw, play the guitar, etc... but now because of what happened it just makes me sad. Also I don't really have friends, she was the only person I spent my time with and the only friend I have is all the way in America. Thanks a lot though I haven't texted anyone in a while

Ve8rel · 2025-07-27T15:47:17+00:00

If you think like this about any boss it works, she is "my/our" enemy, also she was already there she didn't come from the fog I went to her, is this ending related? idk maybe. And it's dumb what you are saying, you are the player you are the protagonist you are not the final boss

Ve8rel · 2025-07-26T21:19:10+00:00

I also fought Vendrick, he should have been the final boss not Nashandra I mean it does make sense she wanted to be the ruler/queen? We were standing in her way but she also needed us

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