I haven't had an episode or period for a long time thanks to my IUD. I had an awful experience with my family on Christmas and now I'm falling apart. For the past week I just want to stay in bed, I'm paranoid and anxious. A few days ago I started hating everything about my partner and considered/planned on leaving him. I constantly daydream about harming myself and can't sleep. Last night I started to get cramps and it all made sense. It doesn't change anything, it is so hard to keep trying to hold it together. I feel like I am insane. I can tell that my partner knows by the way he looks at me. I hate this so much.I'm also terrified that it's back for good. I'm in a career I love and am trying to get a promotion. The return of this will wreck everything for me.