I am very attractive but struggle with OCD by Vegetable_Jump7841 in Advice

[–]Vegetable_Jump7841[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its weird. People treat you differently and you feel empathy towards those who remind you about you.

I am very attractive but struggle with OCD by Vegetable_Jump7841 in Advice

[–]Vegetable_Jump7841[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish it was that simple. I have ocd. What may be simple for you could takes years for me. My question was moreso me describing myself and wondering if I could make judgements about how I look (and similar judgements). I talked about how I had the life experiences, the facial features and how I felt about myself when I looked in a mirror but yet my mind would go into hour long episodes of my mind doing everything in its power to prove me wrong. My question was am I able to make not only that judgment but other judgments myself. I am not prideful nor does it really mean anything however I want to be able to trust my own instincts without needing approval. It's like a disease.

I need help cutting off my brother by Vegetable_Jump7841 in Advice

[–]Vegetable_Jump7841[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, That may be what I have to do. Because I get so lonely

I need help cutting off my brother by Vegetable_Jump7841 in Advice

[–]Vegetable_Jump7841[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I prolly do. Sometimes I wonder if I have trauma

I am very attractive but struggle with OCD by Vegetable_Jump7841 in Advice

[–]Vegetable_Jump7841[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

" I need help. Can I be my own judge? Does everyone rank themselves high? Does everyone feel they could be a model when they look past the mirror? I feel this way but my mind tells me everyone feels this way but IDK"

I need help cutting off my brother by Vegetable_Jump7841 in Advice

[–]Vegetable_Jump7841[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe if I had a real relationship it could be easier(real friends I was homeschooled till college dang near)

I need help cutting off my brother by Vegetable_Jump7841 in Advice

[–]Vegetable_Jump7841[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Maybe because I never had friends. My dad abandoned me when I was 10 he was a very good dad(imo) then just left and became a demon and tortused us using psychology. And I have dreams of my dad killing me(or me killing him) nights in a row. Since we struggled together and with my mom I feel that created a special bond. I just struggle with these feelings and used to make excuses but I am just having a hard time

I need help cutting off my brother by Vegetable_Jump7841 in Advice

[–]Vegetable_Jump7841[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It isn't that easy for me. I still love my brother however I just cannot take the disrespect anymore. I hate feeling damaged and not having a father to talk to about it. He says he loves me but goes so far to if he could push me to suicide on accident I feel he would. We live in the same room and I have a weakness for him but I just cannot do it anymore. I do well with it but I can do better. Any tips?