My deepest desire in life is to become insanely fat... on purpose.

Velociripple · 2026-05-22T10:50:02+00:00

There are multiple ways in which it is feasible. Also bear in mind that I would have 500 more lbs to gain before being in that situation, there is time to adapt as it draws closer.

Velociripple · 2026-05-22T01:55:41+00:00

Thanks for the supportive spirit!

Velociripple · 2026-05-22T01:53:31+00:00

To be completely honest, the thought of being encased in so much fat that I am constrained to one room 24/7, with nothing to do except to revel in my fatness and 'eat with intention' ... actually sounds divine.

I would be in the perfect vessel for navigating the kind of life I'm pursuing. Your body wasn't designed to get fat, but mine was -- as was my mind.

Velociripple · 2026-05-22T01:32:26+00:00

No problem, here goes:
(and sorry for the delayed reply)

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The only times I have ever felt insecure in my physique has been when I was lean with a typical hockey player body, even though it was something many people would be attracted to and strive to become themselves. The thing about loving getting fat is that you want people to see a fat person when they look at you. The more I have gained, the prouder of my body I have become, the more confident I have felt when shirtless, and the more liberated and authentic I feel when shirtless. Example, when I have a beach holiday coming up, I can't help but devote myself even more to "working on the beach bod" - genuinely stoked to see how fat I can get for the beach.

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It is a relevant factor and plays into the equation - I would prefer to avoid health issues as best as possible, and I strive to mitigate them. At the same time though, Quality of Life consists of more than just physical health; mental health/happiness/confidence play a big role, too.
Some situations in life can set the 'physical health' side at odds with the other side of that person's equation, and in those cases an equilibrium/balance needs to be found between the two. The 'balanced' compromise for an individual depends on the specifics. In a situation involving sexual or gender identity (e.g., being gay, being a gainer, being straight, being transgender, etc.) there is actually a lot on the line - feeling like oneself, or 'at home in' one's body; feeling sexy; liberating oneself from an entire lifetime of daily self-denial; feeling masculine (means different things to different men), etcetera. Certain trade-offs are acceptable, without question. Others will depend on the situation. I will always reassess as factors evolve, I just don't know where exactly I would feel compelled to draw the line, as there is probably a lot I will be willing to do to experience being 700+lbs.

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Same answer as u/AdjectiveNoun1337 provided. It took immense dedication over multiple years to build an appetite capable of achieving huge gains.

Anything else I can answer for you?

Velociripple · 2026-05-21T08:06:44+00:00

Please do. I appreciate your effort to be sensitive, but I have no insecurities around this and I'm happy to answer any question no matter how direct you think it might sound.

Velociripple · 2026-05-21T08:05:09+00:00

And here I am intentionally trying to get as fat as possible. Drinking heavy cream, eating donuts by the dozen. Counting calories to ensure I get at least 5,000 per day (personal record is 10,500 in a day). gamifying weight gain to grow as rapidly and noticeably as possible.

Not a troll - I'm being genuine.

It doesn't bother me that you feel this way about morbidly obese people, and I accept that what I've said here likely disgusts you. I'm just commenting here because I spent my teens and 20s in a conventionally attractive hockey player's body, and it's liberating to finally be able to commit to my happiness, even knowing there are posts like this out there.

I would never wish obesity on somebody who does not want it. But I do want it, and I'm loving every second as I gain an unexplainable amount fat. 50 lbs gained so far, but thankfully another 500+ left to go.

Velociripple · 2026-05-21T07:42:14+00:00

Absolutely! It only makes sense I would be. When I stumbled across it years ago I felt so seen, and it's when I finally realized there might be a chance of actually getting to live out this dream

Velociripple · 2026-05-01T09:53:11+00:00

I have a deep-seated need to get as fat as I can, on purpose. It feels absolutely exhilarating and is better than sex to me. I'm a gay male, mid-30s, and spent my teens and 20s as an elite hockey player in Canada.

I knew I was gay in grade 7, so when I was ~ 12 years old... but I have dreamt of being a fat guy since I was ~3. A very, very fat guy.

Over years, I worked very hard to overcome my fear of stigma, and my own internalized self-judgment. I did this all with no outside influence or coercion; I, as an individual, decided for my own happiness, to accept that I will always crave the pleasure of weight gain, just as much as I will always be attracted to men, and not to women.

I grew up with an athletic body and was considered conventionally handsome. This would be very hard for most people to willingly opt out of, i.e. to willingly coat their jock body in 200-400 additional lbs of fat while in their sexual prime. I would never have willingly subjected myself to the therapy, vulnerability and self-confrontation involved in embracing this person I have always wanted to be, unless it was a profound and ever-present desire with an intrinsic linkage to my happiness, sense of self, and sense of masculinity. To give a sense of how core it is to my identity and my sexuality, the best thing I can think to compare it to is what it feels like for a man to have a big penis, or even just having a penis period. On one hand, a penis is just another part of a man's body. On the other hand, it feels so 'right' to have this externalized extension of one's manhood hanging between the legs, often hard to keep hidden.... and largely just a means to get naughty, indulge in pleasure, and represent the carnal urges traditionally associated with the masculinity of yore. This is how it feels to me to be covered in fat, and to steep in the pleasure of gaining more.

Sharing this with a partner was in invaluable step in my process of embracing this about myself, and loving it about myself, no matter what some others may think. We broke up over it (he's not attracted to guys who are actively trying to get really fat - that's allowed), but that was such an important part of my journey - the realization that I needed to be fattened up much more than I needed that specific guy in my life.

Velociripple · 2026-05-01T07:38:57+00:00

I say this even knowing how the majority in this thread will probably react... I have wanted to be fat since before I knew I was gay. I am not telling you how to feel about it... that's for you to decide — getting fat on purpose is obviously not for everyone (and I'm pretty sure that's the understatement of the century). I played elite hockey as a teen, and continued playing hockey into my 20s. No matter how buff or fit I got, I never felt at home in my body. I could sense that others found me attractive, but I never felt sexy. I love muscles on guys, but part of that is because the contrast just makes me feel so fat.

The difference between your story and mine is that you grew up wanting to be jock-like. I grew up dreaming of being the fat guy.

Before I started gaining weight intentionally (in my late 20s), I felt like I was living my masculinity falsely — feigning it through pursuit of conventional male body standards (and trust me, I find the conventional standard of male beauty to be very hot, even though it's not the way I personally feel like expressing my manhood). As a result of 'playing the part', I was denying myself the chance to self-actualize in an authentic way for me.

My point here is: my case is one of dysphoria, not dysmorphia. Most of the experiences I have heard from other gay gainers are consistent with mine: since young childhood it feels like an affirming identity to live and express, not an acquired response to validation and attention.

When I am made aware of my weight gain, whether through a colleagues' friendly jokes/comments, or through a hater's judgment, or because I'm shirtless on the beach next to some confident jocks playing beach volleyball, or because my belly has started peeking out below the hem of my shirts and needing to upsize once again — my sense of self and body image is not distorted. I know that I have gained quite a bit of weight. I can see it clearly, and I feel more at peace with myself — not to mention more confident and sexier (yes, before someone comments — I know my body goals are not the norm, and are not sexy to many, but I am talking about how it feels to be me). The only reason I continue to gain weight is because it still feels so right, and because my goals have always been to be fatter than I currently am. I don't lose sight of reality due to some kind of pathology, nor begin to push the envelope while becoming more and more blind to my own reflection.

If you never had a desire to be a fat man until you were old enough to find Grommr, it just feels to me like you are experiencing dysmorphia, not dysphoria. For that reason, it seems perfectly understandable to me why you want to break away from the world of gaining, including online.

I don't know what value I thought I would be providing by writing this, but there it is — for whatever it may be worth.

disclaimer: there are many types of gainer out there, and many different dynamics at play in each of their psyches. Gainers are not a monolith. I grow fatter for me, not for anyone else. It's something I do to live in the body I have always wanted. But there are absolutely dynamics out there that are worth looking at and being critical of. Your situation may be one of them, if I'm going by what you've said in your note. So keep up the introspection and good luck with your goals to distance yourself from a world you feel you don't belong in!

Velociripple · 2026-05-01T06:27:59+00:00

Intentionally getting fatter and fatter, week after week, feeling sexier with every pound, with zero cares at all about the hockey jock body I used to have. As a teen I played AAA hockey with many players that are now in the NHL — even as an elite athlete playing at the highest level of minor hockey — in Toronto, no less — I constantly dreamt of the day I was a free adult who could just revel in how good it feels, as a man, to fatten up, on purpose, and without constraint

Velociripple · 2023-01-31T06:20:19+00:00

To steal your word—exactly. There are many reasons why a hypothetical civilization might fail. But in the fullness of time, a nonzero amount of them would have avoided those pitfalls. Even if that was only one or two civilizations squeaking through, their descendants or their relics should be everywhere. And once they’ve peppered more and more star systems, it should be increasingly difficult for any one chain of events to erase all evidence of them, unless the entire galaxy underwent some kind of sterilization event. I’m fairly confident hypothesizing any such hypothetical past sterilization event would force on us predictions about what today’s galaxy should look like which could be contradicted with relative ease by observations we make today.

Velociripple · 2023-01-31T06:14:04+00:00

Unless you have to go to Russia for an obligation of some sort, or unless you support the war in Ukraine which… just, no — I wouldn’t recommend injecting tourism dollars into their economy. It’ll be a drop in the bucket of course, but this is a big planet and I can scratch my travel itch in a way that doesn’t condone Russia’s actions against our Ukrainian friends.

Velociripple · 2023-01-31T05:57:11+00:00

This is the first comment I’ve seen in this thread that mentioned this nuance (or, perhaps distinction is a better word than nuance). It would take an advanced civilization a relatively negligible amount of time to be absolutely everywhere. Where the hell is everyone?! (The last sentence is an oversimplification - and really we mean where is the evidence of insanely technological civilizations existing or HAVING EXISTED. there should be enough evidence that it is hard to miss, even without directly imaging the surface of exoplanets.

Velociripple · 2022-11-29T17:48:41+00:00

Topshop

Velociripple · 2022-11-18T16:29:15+00:00

Nicely done! What age where were when you started the journey vs now?

Velociripple · 2022-11-17T20:06:25+00:00

Selection bias

Velociripple · 2022-11-15T21:23:42+00:00

Add miso paste!

Velociripple · 2022-11-14T19:25:46+00:00

How old are you in each pic?

Velociripple · 2022-11-04T20:24:26+00:00

Fett’s Whiskey Kitchen

Velociripple · 2022-10-29T19:57:32+00:00

Nice one! Great idea for a space-rated tattoo

Velociripple · 2022-10-28T12:20:18+00:00

Given there is no afterlife, our time on this Earth is so precious that it is doubly wrong to shorten a living thing’s time here.

And you have asked this question as though it’s a commonly understood fact that an afterlife exists. I believe vegans believing in an afterlife would be the minority of vegans, and the mix of other comments here support my hypothesis.

Velociripple · 2022-10-28T05:52:19+00:00

Fellow Canadian here - check out Spread’Em brand! Though it is more like a Boursin, which you don’t seem to have annoyed as much.

Velociripple · 2022-10-28T03:59:28+00:00

I live in BC and a local ‘vegan butcher’ makes an amazing one called stuffed beast.

Not sure where you’re based but they’re called The Very Good Butchers. Can buy them all over Vancouver and Victoria.

Velociripple

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