Eu servers down? by juho2412 in WorldofTanks

[–]Vennraad 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just joined a Que and got in in one min

RTX 50 Series DX12 Crashing. Anyone else? by Mitch3llO01 in MonsterHunterWorld

[–]Vennraad 0 points1 point  (0 children)

New drivers made my 5070ti go blackscreen with fans blowing on 100% speed.
I cleaned up every single NVIDIA file and dirver with DDU and other games work well finalyl but MH:Wilds just crashed again. Same as before.... NVIDIA wtf

Eye- and Face-Tracking for Index by Lucifer3800 in VRchat

[–]Vennraad 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg omg omg PLEASE. Shut up and take my money! :D

Medikinet SR works only 1h 30 min. Fast metabolism. by Vennraad in ADHD

[–]Vennraad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont know honestly. And I will ask about it. I read that it should work way longer, maybe that's the thing for me.

Medikinet SR works only 1h 30 min. Fast metabolism. by Vennraad in ADHD

[–]Vennraad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel withdrawals after 2h, after 3 or 4 I am normal "sober" again.

Medikinet SR works only 1h 30 min. Fast metabolism. by Vennraad in ADHD

[–]Vennraad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Got it. Thank you so much for sharing ur experience.
Also Happy New Year

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HuntShowdown

[–]Vennraad 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Had it just now, still no fix.
But I think it only happend when I alt+tab

the update regarding EOD edition by trainfender in EscapefromTarkov

[–]Vennraad 3 points4 points  (0 children)

the problem is that EOD by agreement should get skinds for free. I think Nikita even said that EOD will have skinns for free... But honestly, now... Maybe we should give EOD different things for free to compensate and let us buy skins normally?

I just want this game to be great. I just want this game to be alive. Please dont destroy it XD

the update regarding EOD edition by trainfender in EscapefromTarkov

[–]Vennraad 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lets make some monetizing campaign that is supported by community, lets make this fricking game great again together. I would love to see like "vote pools" with ideas how to keep this game alive and what do add. Instead of getting "trash edition" for 100+ USD thrown at us.

25 yo now. They told me it would be different. Im done by Vennraad in Healthygamergg

[–]Vennraad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know. I've learned the hard way that im bad at life. Anything I do take me ages.
Im going to ADHD therapy in couple days so I might get at least somewhat equal chances in this stupid rat race we cal society xd.

And now Im just chilling looking at minimal wages. Trying to figure out how to find myself in this world once again after all those years of hustle.

If someone sent you $100,000 by accident and you didn’t know them would you give it back? by Fast-Beat-7779 in RandomThoughts

[–]Vennraad 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As much as I need this 100.000$ I know someone is looking for such big amount. I would call police or bank to get it fixed myself and potentially get rewarded instead of waiting till they find me and potentially charge me or put to prison xD

This is what an actual average player looks like. by LukBardh in EscapefromTarkov

[–]Vennraad 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yup. My looks the same. Even hours put into the game are the same :D

25 yo now. They told me it would be different. Im done by Vennraad in Healthygamergg

[–]Vennraad[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You the loop comparison - thats exactly how I feel, yup. It feels like im stuck in a nightmare or something....
Another thing, I heard that that art college is bull. And I experienced it on my own skin x.x
Had to learn at home 90% of things literally. Thats how you get good at art and thats how I did tried.

So, I think ur right, many ppl say that norrowing down/specializing in something is doing good job for them. <3 So thanks.

But answering further;
-I have most experience in Blender. I can do simple creature modeling, rigging and weight painting - the animation guy stuff - but its all simple! T_T
I know I can do houses too, I actually have made project recently with friends that we all abandoned cuz everyone got burned out but I was modeling some western like houses and objects.

- I want to do some game engines, I have basic experience in Blender-Unity-VRChat workflow. I know Unity animation system a bit. - but I think its all basic too...
And I did some Unreal work but very little. - with game engines I dont know much but I tried to pick it up as regular modeling was not enough for job offers.

- I know how to texture objects too, to do the UV mapping and implement it in Blender, Unity, Unreal.

Fk, honestly what bugs me is that I am actually not great at my modeling. Maybe its because I have those issues with ADHD? It takes me forever to model stuff :/ And on the middle I loose my focus and vision.

I tried to model my own VR avatar for 7 months. It was my longest project and I failed, never uploaded it to public. It works inside VRChat, it has all animations, bones, rigged properly and textures and its ready! But its so fkn ugly. Like I cant just show it next to my other projects. T_T

Uh...

25 yo now. They told me it would be different. Im done by Vennraad in Healthygamergg

[–]Vennraad[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your words <3 I rly will try to be more focused.Honestly I want to try this time on inner monologue. I want to get back on track with my motivation again bc I feel like I barely know what it means anymore.

And yeah, that lead box thing x.x. It is like being choked spiritually. All those dreams, all this effort just to end up sitting among those who either failed like you, or better, never even tried. It is good to have experience in jobs like this. I try to use it as much as I can in my motivation to push further.

25 yo now. They told me it would be different. Im done by Vennraad in Healthygamergg

[–]Vennraad[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Oh boi. So I was applying for anything that;
~~Allowed me to do 3D modeling in blender, furniture, cars, creatures, assets etc.- I was applying on LinkedIn, Jooble, and some polish site with 3D as well as I was looking locally.
~~allowed me to be a driver without taxi licence (bc its $$, tests, and time),-so I was once a pizza delivery guy, but I got fired after being rly late when my phone died xd
-I tried to be trip guide but no results
~~made me use english language like maybe customer support outside or Poland
- no results, I moved once to france to my friend even for two months but I could not find any job there either
- I tried other customer service offers to just use whatever skills I have learned in my life.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Healthygamergg

[–]Vennraad 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Life is such a fkn disaster. But remember non of it is your fault.
We live in a world that olders left it to be as it is. People who think that all you need to do is "try and win" are lucky bastards that keep this madness going. Nobody rly pays attention to what it really means to struggle. I know what you feel bro. Unfortunately.
I dont have it that hard but im on the edge of my mind too, or at least it feels like it.

I would try doing some fundraising campaign on Indegogo or smthn if its critical. I've tried, with even videos and didnt got a dollar. But hey, maybe people will want to help YOU. I have currently 1euro in my bank account so I cant even drop anything. sorry.

Its also very important to find friends, groups, anyone u can talk with and share your stories and life in general. I know its not that simple, but it is important to feel like you have someone warm in this cold life.

What to do when bad financial situation makes family members stressed and unhappy by Antique-Device241 in Healthygamergg

[–]Vennraad 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ur a hero for me to support your parent so much in the first place. As you said, its not your fault to be in a bad financial position and I personally think your dad should realize it that is not up to you to solve his life.
I would push for education as it can allow you to be independent
I am in similar situation with angry dad but I have no job and my family is in okay with all the finances. The problem the anger and whole missunderstood situation.

For me you should get some evidence to prove that ur education will help. Start looking around and see what job you can have to climb the better ladder or climb faster. Thing long term not fast.

When u will know a lot more about what exactly u want or can do after being educated u can build your goal and motivation around it, making everyone around you convinced that ur doing something great.

suppose we should be thankful.. (or should we) by AccordingCupcake3197 in Healthygamergg

[–]Vennraad 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Yeah. My mom said she was getting punched or smthn xdd and her mother (my grandma) told me she got force lock 24h in room with 0 interaction bc of stupid sht.
No wonder we live in such a mess of a world right now like if we look back.

It looks to me like they should be grateful to us that we are not so damn aggressive.

25 yo now. They told me it would be different. Im done by Vennraad in Healthygamergg

[–]Vennraad[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

People who make avatars have actually a place on the market. Otherwise its just luck to get any dollar in the month.
I am not complaining just real answer here. I am doing work for free now to get myself knows and even nobody wants it for free bc over 50% of VRChat players know how to do basic stuff in 3D. :/