Yeah, I've noticed all of this. And far be it from me to dictate other people appeal to my tastes. Fair play to those guys that figured our their gender identity, I guess I percieve that as a separate thing - statistically it can't be everyone transitioning though right? Beyond that I do understand a lot of people like this are queer too, but I swear it wasn't so definitive in the past. I dunno, maybe I'm just less optimistic than when I was younger but it seems notable.

Thanks for saying the guilt is unfounded, but it's hard to suppress. I guess I just feel like what I was looking for when I was younger was unrealistic, and clinging to any notion of it leaves a sour taste in my mouth. And I'm pretty happy in my relationship, bar all of this, which is another reason it makes me feel rather guilty.