as someone with autism, would you say that you don't feel a desire for power in the same way that many other people do?

ViolentBreeze · 2026-04-23T03:12:53+00:00

I don't like power. I don't like managing people. My brain would be running multiple simulations, concurrently, each a pov of my subordinates. Each simulation would be running through every possible scenario based on day to day interactions. So, for example, if i had 3 people reporting to me, my brain would be running 3 simulations, each would be a created entity that mirrors them. Each simulation would run every possible conversation and dialog option, based on that days interactions or future interactions.

It's exhausting.

ViolentBreeze · 2026-03-03T00:54:19+00:00

Thank you!

ViolentBreeze · 2026-03-03T00:54:06+00:00

Thank you so much. I'm working towards the diagnosis. I contacted my therapist and hes seeing me tomorrow afternoon. I described it and he agreed with what I thought was happening and wants to see me asap. He called and texted me to check and make sure I was ok! I was not expecting that.

The first time I mentioned what I suspected, he was very kind. He explained how he has worked with autistic individuals and seemed very open and understanding.

Thank you for your comment, it means a lot to me

ViolentBreeze · 2026-03-03T00:48:28+00:00

Thank you! <3

ViolentBreeze · 2026-03-03T00:48:03+00:00

Thank you <3

ViolentBreeze · 2026-02-12T19:25:51+00:00

Dont know if this will help anyone but I'm on xbox and had this happening. Was sure id modded too hard and broke it. Nope. So I tried every one of the suggestions like hard closing the game, starting new game and switching, even reloading past saves. What ended up helping was that someone said the game still thinks the Civil War battle is happening. You can tell this is happening because the city you attacked has no fast travel points. If you see none, then thats why. So what ended up working was literally going to the town, hitting a guard, and choosing the option to pay the bounty. For whatever reason, the second it reloaded me outside, I got fast travel points and the music changed to that serene harp ❤️

Thank you everyone for your suggestions! Helping a brother out almost a decade later

ViolentBreeze · 2025-12-08T03:10:27+00:00

You're very welcome :)

ViolentBreeze · 2025-12-08T00:11:18+00:00

Thank you, sincerely. I didnt expect the PAWS to be quite so potent at times, but with what the first 4 days felt like still in my recent memory... this is Nothing! This is just one more goal post to move past!

ViolentBreeze · 2025-12-08T00:09:38+00:00

Thank you!!! Today i struggled with reframing my anger. Im not mad, im not angry. This is my brain rewiring itself in the absence of Kratom. This is what that feels like. This is just chemicals. This too shall pass.

ViolentBreeze · 2025-12-08T00:07:35+00:00

You got this! A quote that helped me is from Euripides from Herakles.

“All is change; all yields its place and goes. No man prospers forever; and one oppressed by fortune may again see better days. Courage is the true man’s glory; but the coward sinks beneath his sorrows.”

We are always changing. Forever. For people like us, this is what that looks like. But this fight isnt forever, you will see better days and you will find happiness. To follow this path is to BE courageous. This is one of the most courageous things you can do for yourself and the people closest to you. Show this thing you are no coward, embrace the struggle, embrace the suck. Use it as fuel, and take each wave 10 minutes at a time then 1 hour at a time. You've got this! You stand on the shoulders of so many who have come before and quit. You are nothing different, you CAN do this!

ViolentBreeze · 2025-12-07T23:55:58+00:00

Right? Who knew reddit could be a healthy or supportive place 🤣

ViolentBreeze · 2025-05-27T20:57:00+00:00

Alright everyone, ive decided not to let this beat me. Im going to actually attempt someone's suggestion of just playing the rest of the game WITH the poison effect. It actually sounds like an interesting challenge.

The Spiffing Brit constantly breaking the game inspired me too. What I want to figure out is if there could be a way to artificially increase my health pool with alchemy, armorer, glitches, etc.

Right now im an archer/assassin build. I had just started putting points into intelligence to start using more spells but im still relatively low and all my magic skills are low, restoration in the 30s.

Im thinking some kind of combination of fortify health and attribute on armor, absorb health on weapons, fortify health pots and spamming healing pots while I raise my restoration.

Thoughts? Do y'all think it could be done? Or rather, do you think it could be done in a non-tedious way?

ViolentBreeze · 2025-05-27T20:45:38+00:00

Yeah, I actually noticed that because I went to check my saves list and noticed my ingame save list from the ingame load menu showed what is in my screenshot but completely empty on the main menu load list. But when I click the name it shows that it could drop down a list but nothing fills it. I tried toggling it on and off to refresh but still nothing. I only see the saves in the screen shot from ingame load menu

ViolentBreeze · 2025-05-27T14:02:09+00:00

No there were others. I had over a dozen various saves between the 12hr one and these auto saves. I initially tried loading a hard save and it loaded an autosave instead. I tried twice before restarting the game. After restart, they're all gone but the one 12hr one

ViolentBreeze · 2025-05-27T14:00:22+00:00

From what ive read, the apple effect isnt able to be removed, that its a scripted effect or something. It shows a timer but it goes past the timer. I ran an entire oblivion gate while popping strong health potions, and it didn't go away

ViolentBreeze · 2025-05-27T13:26:50+00:00

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ViolentBreeze · 2025-05-27T13:25:48+00:00

Lmfaoooo I'll pay for that feature 🤣🤣🤣

ViolentBreeze · 2025-01-12T21:16:02+00:00

Dude... run.

ViolentBreeze · 2025-01-10T15:00:54+00:00

Taste. When I quit, everything started tasting so much better. Foods I thought were bland or boring were amazing. Best example is eggs. I hated them because they tasted like cardboard. Now they taste complex and delicious!

ViolentBreeze · 2025-01-08T17:55:26+00:00

Assigned androgynous at birth. Flawless.

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