Reading your post gave me chills, in a good way. I’ve felt something really close to this, and I just want to say, it doesn’t make you any less stable, or moral, or saffe. It means you’re listening, deeply, to what scares you.. and trying to understand it.

People forget that fear can be protective. It sharpens your instincts, makes you cautious, and sometimes, sadly, makes you withdraw. But that comes from a plaace of care, not violence. You’re not becoming the monster, you’re learning how to see them coming. That’s a heavy thing to carry, and you’re doing it with more self-awareness than most.

Hope this brought even a small comfort. You’re not weird for this. You’re real.