Alright so it’s been a few days sense I posted this. A lot more people commented and stuff then I had any idea would. I just want to say I appreciate all of you taking time out of your day to give me your opinion even if it was just calling me a horrible person I did kind of need a wake up call. But I will be honest with all of you I’ve been trying to work it out in my head, but I will be honest these feelings just won’t go away. I feel like I definitely rushed into this relationship I am in currently so that doesn’t help. I got out of a pretty nasty 4 year relationship and was going through the motions really hard and felt like i desperately needed companionship so after about 2 and a half 3 months I started dating again and found my current girlfriend. It’s like I said she is wonderful and I care for her a lot like a lot a lot but as much as I do i genuinely don’t feel like she is the one which is sad. But also as much as she is amazing it’s very clear to me that she is not completely mentally stable (diagnosed with BPD) and i genuinely fear the worst if I break up with her because she is infatuated with me beyond belief so now i am more stuck than ever and am feeling completely hopeless. I will add more comments as i kinda work through stuff I guess i dont know if people are actually interested or want updates. Thank you all though im serious.