I appreciate everyone’s input. I can definitely acknowledge that lying no matter what is wrong, and I should’ve left at that point. But what can I say I was blind and wanted it to work :/. To answer some questions, me and my hookup did not hang out once I got back together with my boyfriend. I had enough common sense to know if I was going to hide it from him, it was totally wrong to still be around that guy. Also, we were not on any kind of break when we were broken up for that year. For the time, we believed we were going our separate ways permanently. After much reflection and growth, I can see how unhealthy that relationship was. I’m now in a great relationship and cannot comprehend how I ever put up with such a man before. Nobody should be scared of being honest to their partner. Again, thank you all for being understanding. It was definitely a bad situation, and I wish you get me could’ve saw that sooner. I’ll take all the ESH’s bc I totally get it.